same deal

[devils_sweety]

I feel the dark cold clammy touch of it
It haunts me in my dreams
It makes me cry and wonder why
I suffer as I do.

I wonder when it will go away
When the pain will subside
But as I sit here in my false reality
My mind and soul slowly die.

My tears stain my cheeks as they slide down my face
It hurt so long, so long
I've kept these tears deep inside
That relief is bitterly sweet.

My head is pounding and my brain is swimming
My eyes are red and sore
I feel my heart is at its last
I can feel the fear no more.

My body is slowly numbing
The pain is almost gone
I close my eyes and prepare myself
For my mind is at its last.

My throat goes dry as sand
My skin is freezing cold
But I lie awake
Eyes as wide as ever

But my mind has become no more.