i suck, at life

[devils_muse]

sooooooooo i most definitly just screwed up any chance i ever had with shawn ... because i suck ... terribly and completly. ugh, someone in that group said i was a whore, and i think it was him cuz we were all talking and stuff and then i was like, i will go to your track meet and he was definitly down w/ that. then phil was like "HANG OUT W/ ME NOW!!!" so i was like ... yeah, come to the track meet w/ me. and i looked for shawn for like the first hour, then phil was all like ... there and stuff ... and well ... yeah. so now i think that may cause shawn to think im slutty ... cuz idk what he thought was going on w/ us. i mean ... he was like we should hang out outside of school. now me i thought "well fine, im embarassing to be around at school" ... bur then it occurs, maybe he just wanted to hang out outside of school (good job devin) aaannnnndddd i mean, he cancled on prom, so i just didn't think he was interested which sucks cuz i definitly like him and ever since that meet he hasn't talked to me at allllllll :( guh! i should just be shot in the face

if i screwed myself over im going to be so angry! :( just my luck

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