The Breaking Point
Title: The Breaking Point
Summary: What got this particular Lucifer on the road to joining Team Free Will.
Killing Gabriel, he thinks, was the breaking point.
Though he'd been more than ready to eradicate the human race off the face of the planet, though he knew he'd eventually have to face Michael again in battle, though there were a lot of angels he hardly knew or cared for - he'd never wanted to kill any of his brothers. To have their blood stain his hands, his soul, to know he'd snuffed out a star.
But he has, he's killed Gabriel with his own blade, and that's a weight he'll always carry with him now. He loved Gabriel, and when he killed his brother the sorrow of the act was almost too much for him to bear. He'd never wanted to kill one of his brothers. He spends the time afterwards deep in thought, mulling over everything he's done, everything he'll have to do to cause the Apocalypse, even as he's going through the motions of it all.
And he remembers his conversation with Castiel, the ring of holy fire and his young brother's adamant refusal to join him
We're on the same side, like it or not, so why not just serve your best interests, which, in this case, just happen to be mine.
I'll die first.
I suppose you will.
and it's then he realizes - he doesn't want that to happen. He doesn't want Castiel, or any more angels, to die. He doesn't want to snuff out any more stars, he doesn't want any more those stains on his soul. The thought of it is abhorrent. But Castiel will continue to oppose him alongside the two Winchester brothers, and if it continues this way, the angel of Thursday will die.
So maybe it's up to him to stop it.
He weighs the the idea. He still hates the humans, still wants revenge against his Father for casting him out and down, but then he thinks of the Winchesters and Castiel, thinks of their crusade against the roles they were posed to play, and wonders if there's not another way to do it. To defy God.
After all, was it not God who gave him this role to play, the role of a blight on humanity?
He weighs the idea, and he comes to his conclusion. In Chicago, he makes his stand.
Summary: What got this particular Lucifer on the road to joining Team Free Will.
Killing Gabriel, he thinks, was the breaking point.
Though he'd been more than ready to eradicate the human race off the face of the planet, though he knew he'd eventually have to face Michael again in battle, though there were a lot of angels he hardly knew or cared for - he'd never wanted to kill any of his brothers. To have their blood stain his hands, his soul, to know he'd snuffed out a star.
But he has, he's killed Gabriel with his own blade, and that's a weight he'll always carry with him now. He loved Gabriel, and when he killed his brother the sorrow of the act was almost too much for him to bear. He'd never wanted to kill one of his brothers. He spends the time afterwards deep in thought, mulling over everything he's done, everything he'll have to do to cause the Apocalypse, even as he's going through the motions of it all.
And he remembers his conversation with Castiel, the ring of holy fire and his young brother's adamant refusal to join him
We're on the same side, like it or not, so why not just serve your best interests, which, in this case, just happen to be mine.
I'll die first.
I suppose you will.
and it's then he realizes - he doesn't want that to happen. He doesn't want Castiel, or any more angels, to die. He doesn't want to snuff out any more stars, he doesn't want any more those stains on his soul. The thought of it is abhorrent. But Castiel will continue to oppose him alongside the two Winchester brothers, and if it continues this way, the angel of Thursday will die.
So maybe it's up to him to stop it.
He weighs the the idea. He still hates the humans, still wants revenge against his Father for casting him out and down, but then he thinks of the Winchesters and Castiel, thinks of their crusade against the roles they were posed to play, and wonders if there's not another way to do it. To defy God.
After all, was it not God who gave him this role to play, the role of a blight on humanity?
He weighs the idea, and he comes to his conclusion. In Chicago, he makes his stand.