shes sneaky and smoked out...and its starting to show.
So I've come to realize that my own brother is much much more eager to defend his stupid little girlfriend than to defend his sister...who happens to be related to him...which goes without saying...but still could stand being repeated considering he obviously forgot about that small fact. He's become so engrossed in this 16 year old basket case who is so completely wrong for him that he's losing sight of the things which are really important in his life.
And that hurts just a little.
Especially considering that while I may trash mouth him to my friends...once they open their mouths to say one mean word against him I'll still defend him. Family can talk about family...but friends and girlfriends shouldn't be allowed to. And the fact that he didn't stand up for me...
On another note I have once again made a complete desperate looking fool of myself with a guy. Why must I torture myself like this? And when will someone worth my time who happens to like me back come along again?
Why am I even surprised that this is happening? With my brother along with the rest of the entire male population? Sure I'm being dramatic...it's what I'm good at. I'm aggravated with myself and disappointed with my brother...upset with a situation I'm trying to play off as small. I didn't even like the guy that much but the fact that nobody has seemed to want me that way in such a long time...it just gets my hopes down.
Most of my friends have a significant other...a boyfriend or at least an interest where something possibly could take place...I don't know...sometimes I just get jealous or envious of the things I don't have right now. Sure I'll get it again...but I'm tired of waiting. It seems I have to wait a year in between breakups just to get something that will last for only 2 months. I just want a stable relationship with someone who understands me or who doesnt make fun of me when I make lame livejournal entries about the way I feel...even if this is a little too Felicity-ish to take extremely seriously. Why do I have to wait so long for something that will inevitabley (sp) last so short?
Love to anyone who read this in its entirety and who cares enough to comment :]
And that hurts just a little.
Especially considering that while I may trash mouth him to my friends...once they open their mouths to say one mean word against him I'll still defend him. Family can talk about family...but friends and girlfriends shouldn't be allowed to. And the fact that he didn't stand up for me...
On another note I have once again made a complete desperate looking fool of myself with a guy. Why must I torture myself like this? And when will someone worth my time who happens to like me back come along again?
Why am I even surprised that this is happening? With my brother along with the rest of the entire male population? Sure I'm being dramatic...it's what I'm good at. I'm aggravated with myself and disappointed with my brother...upset with a situation I'm trying to play off as small. I didn't even like the guy that much but the fact that nobody has seemed to want me that way in such a long time...it just gets my hopes down.
Most of my friends have a significant other...a boyfriend or at least an interest where something possibly could take place...I don't know...sometimes I just get jealous or envious of the things I don't have right now. Sure I'll get it again...but I'm tired of waiting. It seems I have to wait a year in between breakups just to get something that will last for only 2 months. I just want a stable relationship with someone who understands me or who doesnt make fun of me when I make lame livejournal entries about the way I feel...even if this is a little too Felicity-ish to take extremely seriously. Why do I have to wait so long for something that will inevitabley (sp) last so short?
Love to anyone who read this in its entirety and who cares enough to comment :]