i just wanna bring you down so badly...in the worst way.

[devilkitty037]

My night was pretty good.  That is until my dad decided to call up and "chat".  More like try to bribe my sister with 240 bucks just to see me for 5 minutes.  Wow.  Make a girl feel real special why don't you?  And then when I tell him I'm not coming, he goes on the defensive guilt trip road and tries to make me feel bad for inconveniencing him.  Please, by all means forgive me.  I must have been mistaken in assuming that I owed nothing to the incompetent jerk who pretended to be my father while going out getting stoned every night and then coming home to torment the rest of my family.  How the hell could I have made that mistake?  Please let me make it up to you by getting my sister to come pick me up and drive me to Southside at 8 o'clock at night to see you for 5 fucking minutes.  I mean seriously, how rude of me.  And it's not enough he had to call up and say that...but I could here him getting stoned over the phone while I was talking to him!  How pathetic is he?  And yes I know I probably sound crazy right now, but you have to understand, it runs in the family.  With a "dad" like him, how could I not manage to sound completely insane from time to time?

Anybody have any thoughts?  Besides I love you?  Yes, hearing that helps...but I would really like to have some advice right about now...even if you have no idea what it feels like to be in this position with a parent...

Sometimes I just really wish that I had a normal family...sure nobodys family is exactly normal...but I'm sure a lot of peoples are much closer than mine...Sorry if for the next few days I'm not sympathetic to anyone or in the mood to care for anyone except myself...It's just one of those side-affects.

Love yall.