when all i needed was the truth...
I can't believe how much time I've wasted on these people. Or how much I've allowed myself to get attatched or have my hopes built up by some jerk who doesn't care about me in the first place. I need a night with my friends--and soon.
Does anyone take me for more than just someone to occasionally talk to or hang out with when it's convenient for them? Just another friend added to the list?
I don't care how emo this sounds either, because the people I'm talking about don't even read this so what could it hurt?
I need to feel wanted. And stop feeling lonely. With my brother and sister moved out of the house and myself being the only one left, things are so much more boring than I would have ever imagined them to be. I miss being able to go downstairs and talk to my sister at 1 in the morning because I couldnt sleep and I had things I needed to talk to someone about. I miss sharing a bed with her when we were both feeling out of hope and we just needed to talk all night so we could realize things would eventually go back to normal. I miss the time when my sister wasn't married and living in her own house with her own life. I even miss coming home and hearing my brother playing the same stupid Smashing Pumpkins song over and over and then telling me to stfu whenever I tried to talk to him. And lately I've been missing seeing my mom being happy. Or my step dad not being lazy. Or a day I can go without feeling crushed over nothing. I need a change for the better.
Anyone's thoughts would be welcome...
Does anyone take me for more than just someone to occasionally talk to or hang out with when it's convenient for them? Just another friend added to the list?
I don't care how emo this sounds either, because the people I'm talking about don't even read this so what could it hurt?
I need to feel wanted. And stop feeling lonely. With my brother and sister moved out of the house and myself being the only one left, things are so much more boring than I would have ever imagined them to be. I miss being able to go downstairs and talk to my sister at 1 in the morning because I couldnt sleep and I had things I needed to talk to someone about. I miss sharing a bed with her when we were both feeling out of hope and we just needed to talk all night so we could realize things would eventually go back to normal. I miss the time when my sister wasn't married and living in her own house with her own life. I even miss coming home and hearing my brother playing the same stupid Smashing Pumpkins song over and over and then telling me to stfu whenever I tried to talk to him. And lately I've been missing seeing my mom being happy. Or my step dad not being lazy. Or a day I can go without feeling crushed over nothing. I need a change for the better.
Anyone's thoughts would be welcome...