mystery girl keep on faking that mystery world
well... I think this will be one of the last few entries you'll get from me. I don't know I need to give this shit up. If I don't even have enough fucking will power to give up livejournal then what the fuck DO I have?! It kills me to leave this journal...mainly for vain reasons... I like my layout and I like to whinge. But the time has come. I can't be writing on here anymore. I can't continually feel that I have to be interesting, different, original... I hate to feel like I have to be myself better than anyone else. I hate feeling like I'm trying to win all of your love and compassion. I hate that what I am doesn't matter on here, it's all about how funny I am or how good my layout is. lately I've felt pretty bad about myself worse than I have in a while, and I can't vent on here knowing that people will judge what I write on a single entry. I get upset and I usually vent in this thing, this isn't necessarily how I feel all the time. In fact I guarentee that it's not how I feel all of the time.I'm not comfortable knowing that people are reading this. and I hate yelping for your attention. point is I'm not hanging around... I hate to leave this journal...I dont' know why. I'm not comfortable... maybe I'll start new...but it's up to me to decide. I'll start a new when I'm good and ready. I'll probably keep in contact with some of you. To the others it was nice knowing you I apologise to the people who just added me too. I'll leave the journal up and I'll continue to comment and reply in your journals.. I just wont be posting entres.
thank you for those who care
Love
-Kelly
p.s that doesn't mean you can take stuff from my layout.
thank you for those who care
Love
-Kelly
p.s that doesn't mean you can take stuff from my layout.