I don’t know what’s up with me today.
Really, I don’t. I am frustrated with and disappointed in myself on so many levels now. This makes it hard to even want to keep plodding through the days. However….the feeling will pass. I usually do get a bit melancholy and unreasonable around this time of the month.
Maybe it’s Daylight Savings Time, too. Summer is well and truly over. It is sunset at just before 5PM. Soon, it will be pitch dark at 5PM. I love darkness, and will really enjoy not having the blinding sun right in my eyes for two hours every other weekend when I drive my boys to their dad’s. It will just take me some getting used to, is all.
I am much more worried about all the lifestyle changes I was trying to make for my health, but was unable and unwilling to stick to. When I think back to this spring, when I first started making positive changes (which obviously didn’t last), I am just disgusted that I didn’t stick with it. If I had, then at this time, I would be at a better weight, in better shape, in better health, and probably feeling much better about myself. No, disgusted doesn’t even cut it.
I hate to even share when I am trying to make these changes because then, I’ve failed miserably in front of whoever reads my blog. And that is just as bad as failing in front of friends and family.
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I have done a lot of thrifting lately, so I have a lot of photos to take and post at some point this week! And also another family gift to share.
How’s everyone doing on the fourth day of NaBloPoMo?
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