The Retrospect.: 2009 Edition
Another year, another retrospect. Or in my case, my bitch and whining of how 2009 was.
I figured I'd try to get this done earlier than I usually do. Seeing by the time I usually finish these things, it's well past midnight. Not this year.
Honestly, it's been a mix of good and bad this year. However, because of this I'm starting to believe in Karma a lot more than I did before. More on that later. Anywho, I figure I'd list out the good and bad in a bullet point format this time and have my rant afterward. Might be more quicker that way. *shrugs*
So here we go:
The Good of 2009:
-It's not 2008.
-Decent year for games.(although 2010 is going to be better)
-Had an awesome Birthday party!
-Got a laptop!
-Got to meet friends I haven't seen in awhile.
-A GOOD Ryo of the Wildfire and Tekkaman Blade figure were made and bought!
-I had a fun time at Katsucon 15 and AnimeUSA 2009 this year!
-I got to meet and get an autograph from legendary voice actor, Steve Blum!
-Still employed.
-Still alive.
The Bad of 2009:
-It's still as crummy as 2008.
-Nearly all my old co-workers were fired.
-Previous boss quits just before the busy season.
-My assistant manager, Theo and I had to keep the store running efficiently with all the employee shortages we were facing.
-Our new boss is slow, bitchy, evasive, doesn't know anything about art supplies and gets cowed easily.
-Apparently, I'm hearing rumors that he might get rid of me if I don't pick up my performance.
-Reoccurring back pain.
-Developed some groin pain during the summer which is taking it's dear time going away.(unfortunately, it does take awhile from what I've been told.)
-Still no progress on my driver's license.
-Anxiety, paranoia, depression and the feeling of uselessness is creeping over me.
-Getting that lonely feeling all of a sudden.
And that's long and short of it. Despite there being more "bad" than "good" in the list, there's a reason. The "bad" tends to be something that accumulates over time for me. The "good" I go through tends to be something big I go through once in awhile. So, for every 2-3 "bad" things I go through, equals to 1 "good" thing. That's the example anyway.
As I said about me believing in Karma more...well, it's more about the cosmic "balance" of the person as opposed to being rewarded for doing good or punished for doing bad. I do believe in the latter, to an extent. But moving on. I say this because it seems like to me that every time something goes good for me, something really bad happens to counteract that "happiness". Basically, if the majority of my living is good, then life tends to send me something really bad to balance me out. Something like that. However, it's seems like I'm being pushed more to the negative side of things than I am the good. Granted, it usually has to do with my personal actions and the environment around me. But still, as much as I try to work for a simple life for myself, something comes to hit me in the face. Hard. I feel like I'm being pushed, or held back, to a certain balance that forces me to deal with a lot of stress and not having a lot of things going my way for the rest of my life. For instance, I was able to use up my vacation time after X-mas and I won't be going back til January 2nd! However, Theo called me on Monday and gave me a head's up about my boss talking behind my back about keeping me at the store...
It's frustrating and sad, seeing the reality of it in front of me...*places face in hands*
This is why I've been kinda angry and depressed for awhile. It's also why I don't talk about work anymore. I don't need to bog you guys with my bitch rant. I don't like depressing others. *averts gaze*
Well, I have another year to improve in front of me. How much I improve or want to improve is on me and possibly Karma. I need to see that for myself.
To all of you, have a Happy New Year! And may the new year treat you and you treat the new year right.
Later! *smile*
I figured I'd try to get this done earlier than I usually do. Seeing by the time I usually finish these things, it's well past midnight. Not this year.
Honestly, it's been a mix of good and bad this year. However, because of this I'm starting to believe in Karma a lot more than I did before. More on that later. Anywho, I figure I'd list out the good and bad in a bullet point format this time and have my rant afterward. Might be more quicker that way. *shrugs*
So here we go:
The Good of 2009:
-It's not 2008.
-Decent year for games.(although 2010 is going to be better)
-Had an awesome Birthday party!
-Got a laptop!
-Got to meet friends I haven't seen in awhile.
-A GOOD Ryo of the Wildfire and Tekkaman Blade figure were made and bought!
-I had a fun time at Katsucon 15 and AnimeUSA 2009 this year!
-I got to meet and get an autograph from legendary voice actor, Steve Blum!
-Still employed.
-Still alive.
The Bad of 2009:
-It's still as crummy as 2008.
-Nearly all my old co-workers were fired.
-Previous boss quits just before the busy season.
-My assistant manager, Theo and I had to keep the store running efficiently with all the employee shortages we were facing.
-Our new boss is slow, bitchy, evasive, doesn't know anything about art supplies and gets cowed easily.
-Apparently, I'm hearing rumors that he might get rid of me if I don't pick up my performance.
-Reoccurring back pain.
-Developed some groin pain during the summer which is taking it's dear time going away.(unfortunately, it does take awhile from what I've been told.)
-Still no progress on my driver's license.
-Anxiety, paranoia, depression and the feeling of uselessness is creeping over me.
-Getting that lonely feeling all of a sudden.
And that's long and short of it. Despite there being more "bad" than "good" in the list, there's a reason. The "bad" tends to be something that accumulates over time for me. The "good" I go through tends to be something big I go through once in awhile. So, for every 2-3 "bad" things I go through, equals to 1 "good" thing. That's the example anyway.
As I said about me believing in Karma more...well, it's more about the cosmic "balance" of the person as opposed to being rewarded for doing good or punished for doing bad. I do believe in the latter, to an extent. But moving on. I say this because it seems like to me that every time something goes good for me, something really bad happens to counteract that "happiness". Basically, if the majority of my living is good, then life tends to send me something really bad to balance me out. Something like that. However, it's seems like I'm being pushed more to the negative side of things than I am the good. Granted, it usually has to do with my personal actions and the environment around me. But still, as much as I try to work for a simple life for myself, something comes to hit me in the face. Hard. I feel like I'm being pushed, or held back, to a certain balance that forces me to deal with a lot of stress and not having a lot of things going my way for the rest of my life. For instance, I was able to use up my vacation time after X-mas and I won't be going back til January 2nd! However, Theo called me on Monday and gave me a head's up about my boss talking behind my back about keeping me at the store...
It's frustrating and sad, seeing the reality of it in front of me...*places face in hands*
This is why I've been kinda angry and depressed for awhile. It's also why I don't talk about work anymore. I don't need to bog you guys with my bitch rant. I don't like depressing others. *averts gaze*
Well, I have another year to improve in front of me. How much I improve or want to improve is on me and possibly Karma. I need to see that for myself.
To all of you, have a Happy New Year! And may the new year treat you and you treat the new year right.
Later! *smile*