have you felt the turning point of up set to lost of words...?
Yesterday, I experience the most unusualy thing in my life. I have not experience this feelin before and I felt it was so strange that I could not beleive such feelings could exist. well this is what happend.
A day before yesterday, my family opened a party. So I invited Vanessa, Kevin, and James to come. Also some adults and yeah... So James was the first to come. Later on, Vanessa and kevin came. Followed later on by some adults and stuff. So, We brought dinner and we ate in the hall. Talked a little then moved to the kitchen. Then Vanessa's mom and my mom came to sit with us. They started to talk with us then Vanessa went to go get her homework with kevin... HOME WORK??? AT THE PARTY?????? GOSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh well... then we moved to the dining table... that is when it all started... James is a person who does notlike to be teased alot. I wont say he is sensitive but just not use to it. So, my mom and Vanessa's mom started to ask James questions like, "have you ever been in love?" or someting like that. I was getting so pissed already. So I went out side and started to cry. I was so angry at my mom for doing that to James. I knew james was very upset too cuz underneed the table he kept on tapping me or poking me. Then I called James out side and he saw me crying... he cuddle me and held me. He knew what I was going through but he had to leave. His parents came immidiatle after that. ... I was so upset that I went into the house and go my self two glasses of PortWine and flushed it down at once. Supricingly I was able to just drink the whole glass at one shot. After two glasses I got one moreglass and I headed up stairs. I was so upset. Then James called and talked to me... This is what happend to me a day before yesterday... So I was so depressed... worried if it was the last time i would see James....
Then yester, early morning I woke up for church and went and came back. I prayed hard and good. Soooo much things to pray about that day.. came back, miss called James and he called me back. He told me he wanted to come over to see me. I asked my mom but she scolded me saying that, nobody will be at home so no. Only after 2. I told that to James but she said sorry he could not make it. I became more depressed. I thought that yesterday was the last time I would ever see him... Then. strangly, it started to rain so heavy. The monsoon started... James had to go somewhere out to do something but he did not tell me what. In a bad weather like that, he went out with his bike. But every 10 min or so, he would call me to check if I saw ok or not. He told me that he is waiting at the bus stand cuz the weather is too bad to use his bike. too slippery and heavy trafic. I told him to go home but he said it was so important that he needed to do this today. He nearly fell off his bike again. I got so worried but I was more angry with him going out in the weather like this!!! He should go home!!!!!!!!!! Then he went one shop from another shop and back to another shop. I N THE HEAVY RAIN!!!!!!!! I thoguht he was stupid or something.... Then the rain stopped when he got home. I called him when he got home. Then finally he told me why he went out...
He told me that he went out to get me a present. Because I was going to leave Malaysia in one week, he decided that this was the olny free time he had to do this for me. In the rain... he kept on calling me inspite of the heavy rain. He was all wet. Cold, did not bring a jacket. He did not care, he just went one end to another to get me a present. Then he ask me when was I free so that he could come over to give me it. I was just lost of words. I did not know what to say. I had tears dropping from my eyes. I knew what he had done and in a bad weather like this, he went somewhere so far away from his house, just to get me a presant? I did not expect him to do such a thing for me. I could not even say thank you to him. I felt that the word thank you was not enough. He told me, this is the first time doing something for a girl like this. He would not have done this for any girl. Even if the weather was fine. I felt so bad. I felt so different. I felt something so strange that I did not know how to express my self. My sadness disappered immidiately. Moment of silence fell upon me with out my knowlege. I told him.... thank you. That was all I could say. Then he came over to give me the presant. It was a pink/purple bunny, with a braselet around his neck. It had two braselet. "FOO-FOO" and "JAMES". (Foo foo = his nick name) I hugged him. I was so happy.... filled with happiness.
But there is one sentence he told me which I can still remember....
"I did this, so you could forget about yesterday."