Waiting.... always waiting....
To many long days have been spent waiting, on what though? For people who where supposidly friends saying they would call. For the people that have made promises to keep in touch when they never do. So what am I waiting for exactly? That I still do not know, I am still trying to figure out what is going on in my life. I thought I had it all sorted out and I realize that I am just even more confused then I had been. Things with Angie are up in the air, I know she is not cheating on me now at least. Then again I always knew she was not cheating on me. But the thought was always there that it could happen, I hate thinking in the negative, but it has been my thoughts since I could basically remember. I dont know why I have always thought that way, maybe it has to do with the fact that I am unhappy and that I have been unhappy since I was a kid. I know that is serious depression, I know it can be treated but I know taking everything one step at a time I can get rid of this depression myself. I will overcome all that is before me, I will climb that mountain and I will become king of my world. This is how it will be, this is how I see it, now it is time to make it real.