Thoughts Eatting Away At Me...
This has been such a weird weekend. I met 3 new people. Greg, Sam and Jen. They are great, it was a good weekend other then some of the problems that seemed to happen all at once. I mean I felt like I was playing counsiller all night to my cousin mike. He has a bunch of different things going on and well he flipped out basically and I had to calm him down. I tried everything that I could, and in the end he made up some story saying his dad was coming to get him and he left. He I think may become very dangerous. His possesiveness is way way too much. I mean like Sam is basically afraid of him and he does not see that. He thinks he is being protective but it is far more then that. It is really creepy.
But anyways like I was saying there where alot of emotions that seemed to come loose this weekend. Alot with the others, and then alot with me. It feels like the whole world just imploded in my thoughts. Some of it has to do with not being able to talk to Angie about it and we keep getting interrupted. I mean that I have tried to tell her and talk to her and it never works. I know she is busy and such, but I know before I had went down we would get an hour or 2 to talk to each other and now we dont even get 5 minutes. So I feel somewhat confused, and with that there are thoughts that are eatting away at me. I know it is not a good thing and the best thing to do is to let your feelings out. But I have such a hard time doing that. With Angie I know I was having problems talking about how I was feeling. What was bothering me, but it was coming slowly and now it seems to be stuck again and I cant talk about it. I need to vent to her, I need to let her know how i am feeling and hopefully she will do the same for me. I feel like that the love that I am giving her is not being returned. That I mean that she is not really in love and she is just feeling the need to be with someone at this point in time.
But anyways like I was saying there where alot of emotions that seemed to come loose this weekend. Alot with the others, and then alot with me. It feels like the whole world just imploded in my thoughts. Some of it has to do with not being able to talk to Angie about it and we keep getting interrupted. I mean that I have tried to tell her and talk to her and it never works. I know she is busy and such, but I know before I had went down we would get an hour or 2 to talk to each other and now we dont even get 5 minutes. So I feel somewhat confused, and with that there are thoughts that are eatting away at me. I know it is not a good thing and the best thing to do is to let your feelings out. But I have such a hard time doing that. With Angie I know I was having problems talking about how I was feeling. What was bothering me, but it was coming slowly and now it seems to be stuck again and I cant talk about it. I need to vent to her, I need to let her know how i am feeling and hopefully she will do the same for me. I feel like that the love that I am giving her is not being returned. That I mean that she is not really in love and she is just feeling the need to be with someone at this point in time.