pass the ketchup

[devil_red]

I think sincerity hurts me more...

because it's stated as fact
and if it's negative
all hope is dead because there's no chance that there could ever be a different outcome

i think about that conversation every day
no matter how hard i try to forget

the details are fuzzier i guess
and my heart is definitely on the mend
in fact it's healed

but my mind
my mind is another matter
it's tortured
by memories

and it can process fact
and it knows that you spoke true
when the ideas were so emotionlessly expressed

i feel this event is one of my most impressionable failures in life
pathetic it seems that it would count

but i must count something that evokes this kind of emotion from me
it's awesome in magnitude

i saw a picture taken from a night of subliminal anticipation
of you
of what we could be
of the idea in itself

looking at it i wanted to reach into the picture and grab that girl
and shake her
warn her of the impending storm

tell her not to be afraid and not to be sad
to accept it with open arms

before he threw the information at her
in a fatal fatal toss
she would have to be reminded to ignore her reflexes
and abstain from throwing her arms out to catch it

she would have to let it drop to the ground
and never try to pick it up.

so why do i keep revisiting this?
i know the "right thing"
and yet somehow the wrong overtakes me

maybe tennessee williams is right
ignorance could very plausibly overcome education

what a sad revelation
a sad story to be told
it is so
so it is