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Well I can't tell myself what to think right now cuz I've seen my mind flipped upside down and just my world turned inside out in the matter of a day or two...this is just great cuz the thoughts that I thought I knew and the emotions that I felt that I was secure with turned out to be the worst mistakes of my life (but still not sure yet)...the hope that I've held in my heart was to hope that the person I fell in love with wouldn't go and rip my heart out...tear it to a million pieces...and hope to be so close afterwards...life goes on but life is still the way each of us percieve it...I would give everything to see the world at least run in my favor once...just once you know...but I guess life just likes to do this just to play some games with me...but guess what I'm sick and tired of this game where my heart is dealt on the line and everyone's bets are to see how badly I get hurt...this is just so weird cuz I'm not really an emotional person till I get an attachment to somebody...then I wouldn't ever want to see them get hurt...but you know something...I guess that my fault and I guess thats what will be my downfall in the end...maybe I could...any one of you guys who doesn't have a g/f or think you'll hold one...when we all grow up we'll all go live in NYC and dudes...well finish that thought later ADIOS dudes and dudettes