journaling again...
So I'm not sure if anyone uses this anymore but I need to get back into the habit of journaling...
I'm struggling with my identity. Which is most assuredly not helping my depression. I have come leaps and bounds from where I was this time last year.
knowing that I have to find a way to forgive my self for the choices I have made over the last six years and accepting who I am now because of those choices. Which I am finding to be allot harder than it sounds.
But as I start to be more proactive about making changes in my life and choosing to make better choices for my health, my life, and my future..
I'm struggling with who I want to be... where I want go... what I want to be doing... and who I want to be doing it with
And with out knowing those things how do I get there...
We are coming up on the holidays which is always a stressful time for me where my anxiety runs very high and my temper very short.
The question I have been struggling with the most as we near the inevitable closing of the company I'm working for is what's next?
am I going to work for someone else if so who and do what
am I going to start my own business if so doing what
Am I going to go back to school if so to do what
I stress and worry about everything under the sun. And I'm just lost and lonely and most days just want to stay home.
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