Weirdness.
So a few days ago, my roommate left me a note. She said something along the lines of "I'm not sure why you're mad, but know that I'm not perfect and if there's anything I can do to make it better, tell me." After that I started being nice to her again, with the intention of eventually telling her what was making me upset. I gave up on being angry. It was exhausting.
For a few days, it went okay. Things were somewhat normal. Then yesterday, she and I got ready for our ghetto Halloween dance that our dorm puts on every year, and she said she wasn't going to leave until 11 that night for a party. But since she doesn't like parties, they'd only be there for a few minutes and then she'd come back. I was okay with that; it would be the first time in awhile she was actually going to hang out with me.
The dance started at 9pm. She was there for about twenty minutes when we saw a bunch of people going into Taryn's room. We were both curious as to what was going on, so she said she was going to check and she'd be back in a second.
I didn't see her again until 3:30 (well, with daylight savings ending, it was really 2:30).
"How was the dance?"
"It was fun. You missed it."
"I meant to come right back."
"I know. It's fine."
"I was in there, and then they said they were going to go upstairs..."
"It's fine. I'm going to bed."
"Um... okay... I guess I am, too."
I remember right after the dance, I went in to Paula's room and commented on how she hadn't been there for most of the thing. "I got ditched again, didn't I?" She couldn't even answer me.
But I guess Candace detected my snippyness, because she was acting weird today. She was in Taryn's room when I got up, and told me that she had wanted to go to lunch with me, but I was still sleeping.
"Sorry. Maybe dinner."
"Okay, but I just wanted you to know that I REALLY wanted to go with you."
Yeah, weird. Then she kept asking what I was doing today and being really nice. And this is where I'm lost. Am I supposed to continue being mad at her? Or should I just take advantage of the fact that for once she's paying attention to me? Because I get the feeling that it won't last, but I also want to be able to hang out with her again.
Is she just fucking with my head? It's fine if she doesn't want to be friends anymore, but does she really have to keep making me think that she does and then blowing me off?
I know I should talk to her, but I'm not sure if this is a problem to be fixed, or just something that's changed that will never be the same.
Oh--I totally downloaded episodes of Daria. I haven't seen it in ages! Yay.
For a few days, it went okay. Things were somewhat normal. Then yesterday, she and I got ready for our ghetto Halloween dance that our dorm puts on every year, and she said she wasn't going to leave until 11 that night for a party. But since she doesn't like parties, they'd only be there for a few minutes and then she'd come back. I was okay with that; it would be the first time in awhile she was actually going to hang out with me.
The dance started at 9pm. She was there for about twenty minutes when we saw a bunch of people going into Taryn's room. We were both curious as to what was going on, so she said she was going to check and she'd be back in a second.
I didn't see her again until 3:30 (well, with daylight savings ending, it was really 2:30).
"How was the dance?"
"It was fun. You missed it."
"I meant to come right back."
"I know. It's fine."
"I was in there, and then they said they were going to go upstairs..."
"It's fine. I'm going to bed."
"Um... okay... I guess I am, too."
I remember right after the dance, I went in to Paula's room and commented on how she hadn't been there for most of the thing. "I got ditched again, didn't I?" She couldn't even answer me.
But I guess Candace detected my snippyness, because she was acting weird today. She was in Taryn's room when I got up, and told me that she had wanted to go to lunch with me, but I was still sleeping.
"Sorry. Maybe dinner."
"Okay, but I just wanted you to know that I REALLY wanted to go with you."
Yeah, weird. Then she kept asking what I was doing today and being really nice. And this is where I'm lost. Am I supposed to continue being mad at her? Or should I just take advantage of the fact that for once she's paying attention to me? Because I get the feeling that it won't last, but I also want to be able to hang out with her again.
Is she just fucking with my head? It's fine if she doesn't want to be friends anymore, but does she really have to keep making me think that she does and then blowing me off?
I know I should talk to her, but I'm not sure if this is a problem to be fixed, or just something that's changed that will never be the same.
Oh--I totally downloaded episodes of Daria. I haven't seen it in ages! Yay.