LOVE SUCKS AN ASSHOLE (<3 tizzle)
today is saturday... hmmm yesterday was funny.. in a way.. school was aright.. had two exams woot.. after school was aright chilled the usual.. then josh (my ex) picked me up and took me to the falls cuz i went to the movies wit tosh walter and some blonde guy.. hmmmm for got name.. WE SAW HARRY POTTER FUCKIN MOST AWSOME MOVIE EVER EVERYONE GOT HOTT AND AH I ALMOST CREAMED MY PANTS WHEN I SAW IT.. IT WAS CRAZY.. afterwards we went to mutters car and me and the blonde kid shared an old half sandwich from quiznos.. for some reason we both agreed on it tasting better cold then if it were warm anywho.. during the movie josh texted me a million and a half times cuz he still likes me and wanted to kiss me.. since i dont like him and i dont want to be wit him.. i obviously said no and all that crap.. I HATE BEING THE REASON WHY PEOPLE ARE IN PAIN... yet im in quite enough pain myself.. but im still alive.. i think.. but i feel like i cant have any happy emotions in my heart anymore.. i feel like crying.. last night juan and jack took xtc with water.. with out them knowing it and i felt so bad cuz juan didnt even wanna be there anymore.. everyone was freaking out saying that they were all gonna die cuz they didnt have any water.. (and everyone knows that you have to stay hydrated if you're on x).. this is when i realized that those fuck heads care about drugs more than their own friends.. first time i let out a tear in about a month.. so yea.. im keeping too many things inside.. no one that i actually want to like me.. doesnt.. and i jus feel really alone right now.. i dont kno how to explain it.. oh well.. i think im surviving.. aright then.. gonna go to dance in a lil.. laters..