welcome to a teen's (non existent) love life
have you ever felt like no one knew what you were going through? you feel like breaking down.. crying even.. nothing works.. you try smoking it out of your body.. thinking about the pain that love brings to you in the end.. why even try? you kno how its going to end why waste time and effort on someone that wont give a shit about you in a year or so.. you kno why people do this? its only because without having to care for someone.. or having someone care for you.. you will be fucking miserable.. but why must our path choose a way in which we must go through so much pain to be happy? why must the human heart break so many times emotionally? only to be put back together to be broken again. i just keep thinking to myself.. theres always someone else out there.. always someone else.. well.. since i have no one at home that cares for me.. (except for my cat..) am i supposed to be alone right now? is that how im supposed to live my life until someone SPECTACULAR comes along and sweeps me off my feet? hah i think im dreaming or something.. it only happens in fairy tales.. no one gets the person of their dreams only because their expectations for their perfect person is too high.. leaving them sad and heart broken.. so where does this lead us when it comes to love? what is love? is it only a feeling? no one really knows.. so when you think you are in love.. is it for real? and if so.. how would you know?
..so alone
..so alone