HOME?!?!
Well im home and alone for the first time since burring my dad i stayed at treys since it happen and i know some people think i have fallen off the earth iv been spening time with mandi as well sicne she lives only a block away from trey my dad being dead is really getting hard on me and i know its hard on my mother as well and well trey i just kind of feel sorry for him cause now since my dad is gone we r having to do everything my dad would be doing if he was alive other than work we go out to my land every other day and feed and i cant even remeber how many times we go back and forth to walmart trey and i have been togther a month now and i can tell all this stuff we have to do is kind of running him down so we r taking a couple of days off from each other like we normaly did before my dad died i keep thinking my dad is still alive i dont think it still had not really hit me that he was gone untill last night and me waking up from a nightmare where even after i awoke i was still crying and not wanting to speak thow trey keep asking me what was wrong what was my nightmare about and things of that sort it took a hour of my crying to pass for me to even speak a word and it was to tell trey to take his meds im so afraid of loosing trey right now i dont know what i would do with out him he is the only thing that is keeping me sane right now