morose to the point, living but not sure really why

[devida]

i don't want to go to work tomorrow.
it's not the job, nor the horrendous hour, nor the prospect of having to drill for oil AT the horrendous hour.
more so it's just the feeling i get when i'm in work sometimes.
one of my friends in work told me that she's feeling the same currently. it's not that either she or me don't like people there. it's just that you do tend to feel like an outsider a lot.
at least i do.
i know why she does i suppose, but i feel like an outsider in other ways.
my interests, my telly, my very opinion on the world around me seems unique to the point of bizarre.

i don't mind marching to the beat of my own drum, it's just that it gets a little tiring sometimes when you can't fall on the support of someone else to share a perspective that's similar to you own.
and i am feeling post-op tiredness still, to the point of feeling exhaustion at 9am.

i don't know how i'm going to get through tomorrow, i'm gonna try and do a whole day.
oh well, better go and drill for oil (again).
nite ~ Xx