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It's been a long, long time.
Posting to Lj has seemed so ridiculous.
I think this will be my last post - and I'll explain more toward the end of it.
I've had a really eventful few months.
I started speaking to my father again. I almost moved to Vegas to be taken care of by him, but 24 hours after I arrived there, I was asking to go home. I'm just not okay with anyone taking care of me, anymore. I'm finally figuring out who I am- though the process will be never-ending.
He's doing well. Only carries cash. Figure it out.
He does help me out quite a bit financially, because San Francisco is a very expensive place to live. I'm grateful. Still the same relationship, however. He calls only when he's talking to me about how much tuition is going to be this year, or that I ought to look for money in the mail.
I'm coming to grips with it. It's really a good situation.
So - tuition. I've decided to go to pastry school in SF. One of the most difficult, condensed courses I will ever take - and definitely the most expensive. Since I'm not moving to Vegas, I am responsible for part of the tuition, and my father has agreed to pay a little.
I got a job. A normal, boring, office job. I have my own clients, and work with lots of computers, a/v equipment, wear business suits. Some perks however. I've made a few girlfriends due to this 9 to 5er.
And I've decided I'm not going to date - for a long, long time. I'm going to finish school, start some sort of career, and then maybe I'll consider dating.
Even then, I wouldn't count on it being men.
I'm moving to a new place on April 1st. Same street, less strings. I'm very excited for freedom and independence and isolation when I need it.
I plan on going to as many baseball games this season, as possible.
I sold a painting. Which has inspired me to continue with other ideas on canvas, and other materials.
I've decided to stop checking livejournal. There are too many people I have histories with, or feel too influenced by. I'd rather not let them affect me so much any longer.
Thanks for everything. :)
Posting to Lj has seemed so ridiculous.
I think this will be my last post - and I'll explain more toward the end of it.
I've had a really eventful few months.
I started speaking to my father again. I almost moved to Vegas to be taken care of by him, but 24 hours after I arrived there, I was asking to go home. I'm just not okay with anyone taking care of me, anymore. I'm finally figuring out who I am- though the process will be never-ending.
He's doing well. Only carries cash. Figure it out.
He does help me out quite a bit financially, because San Francisco is a very expensive place to live. I'm grateful. Still the same relationship, however. He calls only when he's talking to me about how much tuition is going to be this year, or that I ought to look for money in the mail.
I'm coming to grips with it. It's really a good situation.
So - tuition. I've decided to go to pastry school in SF. One of the most difficult, condensed courses I will ever take - and definitely the most expensive. Since I'm not moving to Vegas, I am responsible for part of the tuition, and my father has agreed to pay a little.
I got a job. A normal, boring, office job. I have my own clients, and work with lots of computers, a/v equipment, wear business suits. Some perks however. I've made a few girlfriends due to this 9 to 5er.
And I've decided I'm not going to date - for a long, long time. I'm going to finish school, start some sort of career, and then maybe I'll consider dating.
Even then, I wouldn't count on it being men.
I'm moving to a new place on April 1st. Same street, less strings. I'm very excited for freedom and independence and isolation when I need it.
I plan on going to as many baseball games this season, as possible.
I sold a painting. Which has inspired me to continue with other ideas on canvas, and other materials.
I've decided to stop checking livejournal. There are too many people I have histories with, or feel too influenced by. I'd rather not let them affect me so much any longer.
Thanks for everything. :)