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So yeah.
It's time to write because I need to vent somewhere and I don't think Ardii can take more of me talking in circles. I am really not as clueless as I may sound, I know exactly what i want, I do..
I love you Lee. You know I do. The reason I am so upset right now, ready to rip my hair out is not because I want you so much. It because I'm so furious with myself for all the chances you've given me that I've just thrown out the window. The thing with you is that I don't care when you have other boys in your life. Because I know you're mine, you always have been. But I'm starting to reacha point when I need you more than I've needed you before. What about all the times I wanna kiss you? Or want you to nuzzle me? Or when I want to sleep with you? What about those times? Just fuck it all, please, just enough. Just be with me for real. I know you're scared of the same things as I am, but I doubt we'd be much more different. And Lee.. what makes you think I'd ever treat you the way Jay did...? That statement had me speechless.
I'm done talking to my blog. Everytime we try to talk though we fail miserably. Either one of us get clobbered. Fuck it. Just fuck. I'm so angry. Oh so angry. I just want him. I blew my chance. And now he's given up, thinking it's not worth what we're sacrifising.
Good night.
Not really.
It's time to write because I need to vent somewhere and I don't think Ardii can take more of me talking in circles. I am really not as clueless as I may sound, I know exactly what i want, I do..
I love you Lee. You know I do. The reason I am so upset right now, ready to rip my hair out is not because I want you so much. It because I'm so furious with myself for all the chances you've given me that I've just thrown out the window. The thing with you is that I don't care when you have other boys in your life. Because I know you're mine, you always have been. But I'm starting to reacha point when I need you more than I've needed you before. What about all the times I wanna kiss you? Or want you to nuzzle me? Or when I want to sleep with you? What about those times? Just fuck it all, please, just enough. Just be with me for real. I know you're scared of the same things as I am, but I doubt we'd be much more different. And Lee.. what makes you think I'd ever treat you the way Jay did...? That statement had me speechless.
I'm done talking to my blog. Everytime we try to talk though we fail miserably. Either one of us get clobbered. Fuck it. Just fuck. I'm so angry. Oh so angry. I just want him. I blew my chance. And now he's given up, thinking it's not worth what we're sacrifising.
Good night.
Not really.