Purpose.
Purpose - a result of desire; an intention; a subject of discourse; the reasons for something whether is done or will be.
It's been boring and hard now days. Like I'm searching for something or a purpose to hold on. Every day when I wake up, I ask myself; "What will I fight for today?". Yes, I could tell logic and cryptic lies with my tongue but I couldn't lie to my very own self. Maybe I am now drowning in my own confusion of definitions; gasping for truth to survive.
Is there any hope left? crawling and digging to just pretending there is hope to stand on where there isn't. And after giving up, hope unexpectedly come; which is when it's all too late to even see it. Hope...is false in a way. Despair it might be but truth it hurts.
Someone told me I am smart in a way but why do I feel stupid each minute anyway? dang, it annoys me.
Reputation isn't about money; it's about people's opinion about oneself and how it spreads on people's mind like a plague. If you're nice as a PM, people worship and thank you like a god; if you've been marked as black-hearted-evil-bitch-who-looked-nice-from-the-outside, then you are a sinner (or Lucifer's child). not me saying that, a friend told me. :)
College life is ok la. just a plain thing in my eyes. oh, getting fleshier in a way. must diet.
It's been boring and hard now days. Like I'm searching for something or a purpose to hold on. Every day when I wake up, I ask myself; "What will I fight for today?". Yes, I could tell logic and cryptic lies with my tongue but I couldn't lie to my very own self. Maybe I am now drowning in my own confusion of definitions; gasping for truth to survive.
Is there any hope left? crawling and digging to just pretending there is hope to stand on where there isn't. And after giving up, hope unexpectedly come; which is when it's all too late to even see it. Hope...is false in a way. Despair it might be but truth it hurts.
Someone told me I am smart in a way but why do I feel stupid each minute anyway? dang, it annoys me.
Reputation isn't about money; it's about people's opinion about oneself and how it spreads on people's mind like a plague. If you're nice as a PM, people worship and thank you like a god; if you've been marked as black-hearted-evil-bitch-who-looked-nice-from-the-outside, then you are a sinner (or Lucifer's child). not me saying that, a friend told me. :)
College life is ok la. just a plain thing in my eyes. oh, getting fleshier in a way. must diet.