hey
so yeah its currently 2.42 am i havent slept i havent been able to sleep for about 3 days now. i had to create a new account here because my old accounts a peice of crap and they said my account didnt exist. ive been cooped up in this goddamned house i need to get out of. im tired i feel sick and when i try to sleep i keep on feeling this sense of doom like if i sleep i will wake up in the etheral plane and they will tell me my human form died. so yeah fun. i guess i am also stressed i havent found evans cell and i have no way of contacting him and i dont know if he has tryed to contact me because everyone is on the internet including me im worried to hell that he might do something stupid or that ill find out from someone that hes in the "i am dead" section of the news paper. i dont know anymore. ive also been having sequential dreams and apparently someone i may know not sure yet who is also friends with red has been having the same dreams. well at least im not alone unfortunatly they wont tell me what they think it is which just stresses me out even more because i get the feeling that its one of those it looks good dreams but its realy realy bad!! all i have to say is goddamnit shit fuck and other such curses!!!!