live is just....live
there comes a time in every persons live.
where they sit down and think of wo they are, who they've been, and who they actualy want to be.
that time i just recently exprerianced.
it took me 2 fucking years.
and i guess i finaly came with a peacefull idea of who i'd like to be.
just some stupid ordinary part of sociaty i'm affraid.
since i have no further tallents that just my pretty face (joking)
so i can't make it to hollywood, nore will i be ever seen on tv.
but last month there was this exeption.
i was interviewd by this tv station to tell something about the drug abuse in the area i live.
i live in a part of holland they call ''west-friesland''
since a friend of mine has been killed cause of some bad coke deal it's big news in Holland.
cause he was only 16 years old. that is as far as my TV career wil go.
i wil not be a super model, i wil not be an actor or be singer or something.
just some random person from midd-class.
but i am glad with who i am.
the opposite of who i was.
im more happy these days as back when i was being ''goth'' and all.
i got more friends, and even my new boyfriend is better.
and i still wonder.
why did i ever tryed to get in that group of pathetic people.
that conciderd themselfs so ''goth and hawt''
i think it's cause i just want to stand out.
i don't know.
but the new me iscewler, hawter and out of her writers block.
and sucks in sociaty ,;)
where they sit down and think of wo they are, who they've been, and who they actualy want to be.
that time i just recently exprerianced.
it took me 2 fucking years.
and i guess i finaly came with a peacefull idea of who i'd like to be.
just some stupid ordinary part of sociaty i'm affraid.
since i have no further tallents that just my pretty face (joking)
so i can't make it to hollywood, nore will i be ever seen on tv.
but last month there was this exeption.
i was interviewd by this tv station to tell something about the drug abuse in the area i live.
i live in a part of holland they call ''west-friesland''
since a friend of mine has been killed cause of some bad coke deal it's big news in Holland.
cause he was only 16 years old. that is as far as my TV career wil go.
i wil not be a super model, i wil not be an actor or be singer or something.
just some random person from midd-class.
but i am glad with who i am.
the opposite of who i was.
im more happy these days as back when i was being ''goth'' and all.
i got more friends, and even my new boyfriend is better.
and i still wonder.
why did i ever tryed to get in that group of pathetic people.
that conciderd themselfs so ''goth and hawt''
i think it's cause i just want to stand out.
i don't know.
but the new me iscewler, hawter and out of her writers block.
and sucks in sociaty ,;)