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[deuxsurrealiste]

I'm never takin Gui to my mum and stepdad's flat ever again. NOT EVER. It was fuckin horrible. My stepdad figured out we live in a one bedroom flat and he asked why that was if we're just mates and I was so scared he was gonna figure out we're boyfriends. I thought I was gonna be sick, but all this horrible word vomit come out instead. I just

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[inthereeperbahn]

haha thats some kind of poetic justice :P sorry mate not much sympathy. i dont know why you dont just tell them. heres your choices, 1) you upset them but dont upset your bf who your supposed to be in love with, 2) you keep on hiding it even thoug its stressing you out and its got to be hurtful for him as well, just to keep some people happy what you dont even see that much and tbh it sounds sound like they know already and there just fucking with you. grow some balls and stop being a little bitch, it aint the 1700s no more, your not going to get hanged or nothing so wtf is the problem x

[deuxsurrealiste]

What do you mean 'supposed to be'? I AM in love with him! It ain't like I'm hidin him cos I'm embarrassed of him or nothin!! It's just cos I don't want my stepdad bein a cunt about it and I don't want him talkin rubbish about me to my little brothers. I mean one of them is 14 and he already knows and he don't care, but the other two are only 12. There just kids and I don't want them growin up hearin how horrible I am or sommat, cos then how are they gonna feel about me?

It's just fuckin bullshit and it ain't fair.

[inthereeperbahn]

o.O life aint fair and thats just the way it is, whats new?? if your stepdads a bastard about you around them kids its your job to make sure you see them loads and show them your a good guy and your normal and make sure tehy see which of you is right, telling lies only is going to make it look like HE is right and its something sick and weird your ashamed of and need to hide and what is THAT telling them then?? that its ok to talk shit about people til they tell lies? thats hardly beig a good role model neither you know. grow up and deal with real life like a normal person and stop making lame excuses!!!!

[deuxsurrealiste]

Mate, I know your probably right, but fuckin hell! Excuse me for feelin sorry for myself in my own journal

I KNOW I fucked up. I don't need everyone ganging up on me to tell me!

[inthereeperbahn]

it aint ganging up its just friendly hard talk!! nobody would be a real mate if we all just went oh poor baby pat pat dont you worry. nobodys going to fix this exept you, just get on with it and stop being a little girl cos feeling sorry for yourself wont change fuck all x

[deuxsurrealiste]

Yeah...I guess your right. I ain't tryin to be a little bitch about this, I just always been well weird about things when it comes to my family :/

I guess I just gotta sort it out though