Catching Up
Haven't updated in a couple of days... Sorry to any of those who actually read this journal. My weekend was mostly pretty busy, I would go to bed dead tired, and then I would wake up with no time in the morning, but I'm sure if you really cared you'd find out later on. -_-; I've really been getting out of habit for doing entries right before I go to bed, I'm not sure if I should get in the habit of doing so again because I forget things too easily, but I'll get so tired at night. *sigh* I guess I'll figure it out soon enough.
I woke up on time Friday morning, and I got to talk to Lesa for a little while before going into work. Work wasn't really special at all, I just did a lot of work, I re-organized our X-Box section from which out DM messed up about a week ago. I also did my usual work like keep the store in order and process trade-ins, which sound much less a pain in the ass than they actually are. I remember calling Lesa during my break around 6 p.m., but I didn't get to talk to get very much at all because she was really busy, but I really didn't mind. The rest of the work night went by pretty fast.
I talked to Lesa from about the time I finished closing up at work until around 10:30 p.m. and I think I remember that we talked about a lot of things, spending time together, having a baby, and John's situation if I recall correctly. I can't remember what or why any more but I know I got down a little that night, because it just doesn't seem like a normal day until I mess something up... -_-; I don't know what it is with me, but I just let things get to me entirely too much when I open myself up to someone. Most people could say almost anything to me and it wouldn't affect me, but with Lesa, all that happens is that she'll joke around and I'll take it the wrong way and then she has to deal with me for half an hour being down about something. I really don't know why I do it, it's just at the time, it feels so much more intense than it would, I'm not sure...
I was dog tired at the end of the night. I know because Lesa told me about it the day after. It used to be that would only happen with Lesa but now it's happening with me more often, maybe I'm getting old in age... >_> Haha, just joking angel. ^_- Lesa wanted me to call her before I went to work again, and I really wanted to talk to her before work as well. I didn't get out of bed until three minutes before I was supposed to call her and an hour and three minutes until I had to be at work. I felt really horrible because I had to rush to get a shower, Lesa called my phone a couple times and I only got to talk to her for fifteen minutes, ten of which minutes were about how I should get off the phone and get ready for work.
I just didn't feel good most of the day. I really wanted to talk to Lesa, but I didn't get a chance too. Maybe it was more of the need to live with her again. I'm afraid it might be, because that is what always creates the biggest problems, and that's what I'm so afraid might ruin us. We're going to be getting so close to living together, I just need to be strong for a little while longer. I didn't do much at work again today, just more of the same, more of the usual. I called Lesa during my break, but that didn't make me feel any better, unfortunately. I just seemed to give Lesa headaches and I thought she didn't want to talk to me. So I felt even more down after that, but Lesa, being the beautiful angel she is, sent me some text messages and left me a voice mail that made me feel a lot better.
I talked to her pretty much for the rest of the night. Again I got down over some stupid crap, but we ended up 'working' it out, like we always do at the end of the night. -_-; I feel good about talking with her last night, but I just don't want to keep bringing things down all the time. Plus, I want t stop sleeping through my alarms all the time as well. >_>
I woke up on time Friday morning, and I got to talk to Lesa for a little while before going into work. Work wasn't really special at all, I just did a lot of work, I re-organized our X-Box section from which out DM messed up about a week ago. I also did my usual work like keep the store in order and process trade-ins, which sound much less a pain in the ass than they actually are. I remember calling Lesa during my break around 6 p.m., but I didn't get to talk to get very much at all because she was really busy, but I really didn't mind. The rest of the work night went by pretty fast.
I talked to Lesa from about the time I finished closing up at work until around 10:30 p.m. and I think I remember that we talked about a lot of things, spending time together, having a baby, and John's situation if I recall correctly. I can't remember what or why any more but I know I got down a little that night, because it just doesn't seem like a normal day until I mess something up... -_-; I don't know what it is with me, but I just let things get to me entirely too much when I open myself up to someone. Most people could say almost anything to me and it wouldn't affect me, but with Lesa, all that happens is that she'll joke around and I'll take it the wrong way and then she has to deal with me for half an hour being down about something. I really don't know why I do it, it's just at the time, it feels so much more intense than it would, I'm not sure...
I was dog tired at the end of the night. I know because Lesa told me about it the day after. It used to be that would only happen with Lesa but now it's happening with me more often, maybe I'm getting old in age... >_> Haha, just joking angel. ^_- Lesa wanted me to call her before I went to work again, and I really wanted to talk to her before work as well. I didn't get out of bed until three minutes before I was supposed to call her and an hour and three minutes until I had to be at work. I felt really horrible because I had to rush to get a shower, Lesa called my phone a couple times and I only got to talk to her for fifteen minutes, ten of which minutes were about how I should get off the phone and get ready for work.
I just didn't feel good most of the day. I really wanted to talk to Lesa, but I didn't get a chance too. Maybe it was more of the need to live with her again. I'm afraid it might be, because that is what always creates the biggest problems, and that's what I'm so afraid might ruin us. We're going to be getting so close to living together, I just need to be strong for a little while longer. I didn't do much at work again today, just more of the same, more of the usual. I called Lesa during my break, but that didn't make me feel any better, unfortunately. I just seemed to give Lesa headaches and I thought she didn't want to talk to me. So I felt even more down after that, but Lesa, being the beautiful angel she is, sent me some text messages and left me a voice mail that made me feel a lot better.
I talked to her pretty much for the rest of the night. Again I got down over some stupid crap, but we ended up 'working' it out, like we always do at the end of the night. -_-; I feel good about talking with her last night, but I just don't want to keep bringing things down all the time. Plus, I want t stop sleeping through my alarms all the time as well. >_>