High of 72
This winter has been comparatively mild but still cloudy most of the time. The lack of sunshine always gets to me. The sun lamp I bought never caught on and just sits in the corner of the basement because it's not instant gratification. Using it might have helped but that would require turning it on, sitting in front of it and repeating that process for several days or weeks. I can't even get through a full movie before losing interest so..
Today was/is sunny and in the low 70's. This is the type of weather I've been dreaming of because I know sunshine makes everything better. Hell, you could be having a terrible day but if it's sunny then nothing else matters. It's almost like sunshine burns away all the bad stuff, like a warm blanket to hide under. While I did get out today for half a day of work and a quick trip to Costco, I failed to really enjoy the weather the way I planned. I should have just gone straight to the botanical gardens for a walk but instead I came home, unloaded some groceries then took a nap. Now it's just after 5:00 and the sun is low in the sky but it's still 70 degrees. I could get off this couch and walk around the block, but I just drank a beer, so I don’t really want to.
The thing is, I don't want to do anything. I'm fine with work because I enjoy what I do but that's about it. Even the bowling league I joined is more of a drag than an excuse to get out and socialize. I never want to go but almost always enjoy myself, kind of. Or at least I think it should be fun so I force myself to go. Is this the result of the Covid years? Maybe learning to be content with just staying home has stuck with me. Will I ever want to get out there again and hang out with friends? Where are all those friends?