Things Change
Well, some things change, but most just more or less stay the way they are. At least the good things... they don't need to change because they are already awesome.
That's not to say change is bad. I have definitely changed in some ways (most for the better!)...
Lately though, it seems like things are just fucking changing all of the goddamn time. Just when I was starting to feel comfortable and settled... things had to go and change again.
Being dumped when you thought everything was going well is just shitty and heartbreaking. It's like, sometimes bad things happen, but it's okay because they are things that no one can control and you just have to accept them and continue on. But, being dumped when you still want to be with the other person sucks because like, it doesn't have to happen and it is definitely under the control of the dumper. And that really sucks.
Even with friends here in ATL - great friends who remind me of my own self-worth - it's hard for me to move past what I recently had. This time last week I was just dizzy with happiness after a great birthday weekend with a boyfriend I really cared for, and now I'm just being a dumb emo kid, writing in my LJ, and resisting an urge every five seconds to beg to be taken back.
I know things weren't perfect and I know I will soon find peace with the way things are, but for now I'm just gonna let myself be upset, because I am. This sucks. Like, this honestly sucks.
That's not to say change is bad. I have definitely changed in some ways (most for the better!)...
Lately though, it seems like things are just fucking changing all of the goddamn time. Just when I was starting to feel comfortable and settled... things had to go and change again.
Being dumped when you thought everything was going well is just shitty and heartbreaking. It's like, sometimes bad things happen, but it's okay because they are things that no one can control and you just have to accept them and continue on. But, being dumped when you still want to be with the other person sucks because like, it doesn't have to happen and it is definitely under the control of the dumper. And that really sucks.
Even with friends here in ATL - great friends who remind me of my own self-worth - it's hard for me to move past what I recently had. This time last week I was just dizzy with happiness after a great birthday weekend with a boyfriend I really cared for, and now I'm just being a dumb emo kid, writing in my LJ, and resisting an urge every five seconds to beg to be taken back.
I know things weren't perfect and I know I will soon find peace with the way things are, but for now I'm just gonna let myself be upset, because I am. This sucks. Like, this honestly sucks.