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Such an amazing realization. These past few months have been pretty interesting. I suspect the next few will follow suit.
I'm seeing all the ways I am like my father, so many new traits have been surfacing. In the act of becoming more confident and more in love with my inner self, I've noticed all the ways I can manipulate people. I know now that I am magnetic, the reason is still vague, but I know it's there. And I've used that to my advantage. I cannot, I refuse to continue down this path, all too familiar with it's repercussions on the ones I love. I see now that my choice to be more humble is what makes me different from my father. The act of studying and changing my behavior is what makes me better than that.
The very act of using people is one of the main reasons I disconnect. How can I have a genuine connection with someone when I think of them as a puppet? Grant, I don't think in such extreme terms, this has all been subconscious to me until recently, but this is not the person I want to be. This is no longer the person I am, not after today.
I'm seeing all the ways I am like my father, so many new traits have been surfacing. In the act of becoming more confident and more in love with my inner self, I've noticed all the ways I can manipulate people. I know now that I am magnetic, the reason is still vague, but I know it's there. And I've used that to my advantage. I cannot, I refuse to continue down this path, all too familiar with it's repercussions on the ones I love. I see now that my choice to be more humble is what makes me different from my father. The act of studying and changing my behavior is what makes me better than that.
The very act of using people is one of the main reasons I disconnect. How can I have a genuine connection with someone when I think of them as a puppet? Grant, I don't think in such extreme terms, this has all been subconscious to me until recently, but this is not the person I want to be. This is no longer the person I am, not after today.