204. Sometimes the appropriate response to reality is to go insane.
I'm back. I...don't know when I'll be returning to work. But -- I'm back.
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The only people I've seen since coming back have been my mother, my sister and the captain. My mom cried, my sister cried...I haven't -- when I was still in China in the hospital I was too tired to cry. Now...I just can't. It'll only unleash everything all over again. And I can't do that. I have to get well enough to return to work. And then...everything will be back to normal. It has to be.
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The only people I've seen since coming back have been my mother, my sister and the captain. My mom cried, my sister cried...I haven't -- when I was still in China in the hospital I was too tired to cry. Now...I just can't. It'll only unleash everything all over again. And I can't do that. I have to get well enough to return to work. And then...everything will be back to normal. It has to be.