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bleeeeh my tummy is killing me :[
all that water i drank, then the dinner i ate just makes me feel huuuuuge
but i'm sure its nothing a good shit can't take care of :]
i'm so classy...
so if i discovered all these new things about myself could it be that maybe mom and i need to go to therapy more?
or do i just need to go?
i still have no idea what to do college wise
sure i blame my parents
but they were supposed to raise me, right?
and if they saw a problem with me not being motivated in school then why not do something about it?
it just frustrates me so much that i'm so smart apparently but they never wanted to help me out to do better...
just a little push ya know?
thats what pissed me off the most, when maria asked mom "how do you know she's smart?"
and my mom had nothing to say
no one wants to think their child is dumb so what else was she going to say?
i have all this logic and intelligence maybe...but nothing to do with it
what the fuck am i supposed to do
i feel like i have no guidance, nothing to help me, no one telling me whats coming up next and what i'm going to do
no one prepared me for any of this
where the hell were my parents?
just because i had bad grades doesn't mean i can't do anything with my life
but fine
when i'm a housewife doing shit with my life, i'll find an outlet to blame and it'll be them
i may sound childish, i may sound immature, but i just don't care anymore