So . . . a little has changed . . but in a GOOD way! Finally here to UPDATE!!
I know it has been FOREVER since I came here and updated my journal but HERE I AM! It's just that school has been driving me CRAZY and I just could not find the time. So I'll try to update on all the pertinent things that have occurred although I know I might miss some things. I don't know how to "hot link" stuff, so I'll just categorize stuff and read what you find most interesting!!
SCHOOL
Well, been in school almost 2 months now and just had my first set of exams this past Monday and Tuesday. This year started out pretty differently for me b/c for some reason, I DID NOT have a problem with studying. It's like I know how much I need to study now and I actually enjoyed studying this year. The ONLY time I had trouble concentrating were the days before the exams b/c I just wanted it to be over and I was fed up. I have had to brush my friends off SO MUCH and was not able to do MANY things with them b/c of how much I was studying. The worst thing happened though b/c when I got one of my grades back, I was SO DISAPPOINTED in my grade. It's just that I thought back to just how much I was studying and how much I sacrified and my grade DID NOT reflect all the sacrifices I made. It was VERY DISCOURAGING but now I know that I just have to study harder and can only try to do better on the next exam. What's done is did.
FRIENDS
I have only gotten closer to my medical school friends and every moment we have, we spend time together. I know FOR SURE I will stay friends with these people forever. We are SO DIFFERENT but have the same drive of being doctors. I love it. We of course CUT UP the night after our exams. We ate at Chili's and went to this club that had like 5 people inside there but we danced our ASSES off for like 3 hours. All I needed was a drink and it was OVER. I was full of energy. Only thing is I woke up with a hang over the next morning. The first time I remember having one too, lol.
FAMILY
I haven't seen much of my family lately since I have not been home in a good minute. And what made me REALLY realize how long it's been was my Godchild calling me and telling me he missed me!! I almost cried b/c he NEVER told me anything like that. I will be home next weekend though b/c I have a 5 year high school reunion to attend. Gotta show these people how I'm still fine, lol. My mother is actually her at my apt. as we speak and we had a pretty good day. I brought her to the French Quarter and a few malls and Jackson Square and Cafe Du Monde to get beignets. It was really nice.
ENTERTAINMENT
So there are LOTS of CD's that have come out lately that I have just HAD to get and a few reality shows I have just gotten attached to. Here are my reviews:
Christina Aguilera's Back to Basics: It is amazing that someone in the 21st century went back to the 20's as her inspiration and the album turned out SO GREAT. My absolute favorite song is HURT which just emphasizes how great of a singer she is. I admire her for being different and am so very happy for her.
Danity Kane's Danity Kane: I watched Making Da Band and heard a few songs I thought I would like and have fallen in love with Dawn, who happens to be from New Orleans, so went to get their album and I must say IT IS SUPERB!! There are SO MANY songs I love with my absolute fav. being SLEEP ON IT which is the hidden track. These girls have potential and I wish them the best.
Beyonce's B'Day: So I am sure that just about EVERYONE has this album and I am mad at the number of tracks on it first of all. If you recorded 22 songs in 2 weeks, why not put at least 15 songs on dat bitch? I must say though I am in love with IRREPLACEABLE. Absolutely marvelous. I personally believe Beyonce is so much better at singing ballads so do believe Dangerously In Love was a little better but it's cute for her to expand her horizons.
Flavor of Love 2: I JUST STARTED catching this when New York came back and I have gotten attached again! I can't wait to see where things will lead and have a pretty good feeling that New York will when this season. If she doesn't, someone might as well get ready to admit her to a crazy house.
Big Brother: All Stars: It seems like everyone I was rooting for was getting voted off. First was Marcellas, then Danielle, then Chicken George. I finally ended up with Janelle, who I absolutely HATED in the beginning but it got to a point where her strength in the game was very obvious and I was like she deserves to win. Nevertheless, it ended up being boring and I am too upset that a person who owns 6 restaurants wins $500,000. Dats bull shit.
RELATIONSHIPS
So this is the aspect that has changed THE MOST. Ded and I are not talking like we were in the past. I got SO TIRED of running and running after him so I simply called things off. I felt like I was getting hurt more than anything by not having anything with him and wanting something so badly so I called him one day and told him he could stop calling me. We didn't talk for like a week and he called a week later telling me all the things he was going through and how he was not happy and I realized something--He SO did me a favor by not falling for me and wanting to be with me b/c he had TOO many issues and a relationship would just make things worse. He needed to just focus on his issues and not worry about relationships and what not. So from then on, we stopped talking and seeing each other as much and the only time we talk now is when he calls me. And whats SO WEIRD is that he seems to be coming around now but my perspective of things have changed SO MUCH that I don't even want him like that anymore. I speak to him to be cordial and talk about what's going on with us but I don't even like him "like dat" anymore. He sends me texts saying how he is thinking about me and even told me once how he wished I was his first b/f--that way, he wouldn't be so bitter and he knows things would be great between us. WTF! You mean to tell me that when I stop showing interest in you, you start showing interest in me? I'm so WHATEVER about him now though.
Now as far as Mister Trey. I thought he was such a good person for he was the only nigga dat ALWAYS followed through on when he said he would do something and never led me astray. Well, things have TOTALLY changed. This negro decides to call me TWO WEEKS after an incidence where he didn't show up when he said he would to explain things to me. If he only knew, once he didn't show up and let me know what was up, it was OVER for him. I just could not believe the nerves of him!
So, these two negroes have led me to a new stage in my life--THE NEW HAPPY AND SINGLE LIFE. At this point in my life, I am SO VERY happy AND single. I can't say there was ever a time before when I had BOTH of those things occur at the same time. I usually want love SO BADLY and always run after it to be left upset. But now . . I have realized that all relationships bring is DRAMA and that's something I DO NOT need right now. Besides, I have MORE THAN ENOUGH with school to keep me busy and I think that's why I love studying so much more now b/c it keeps me from even thinking about those lonely moments I get and what not. I am just so proud to say I am happy with being single. I think that I have had so much healing to go through since Quan and have morphed into a new Jeremy.
Speaking of Quan, so I started chatting with him again on Yahoo Messenger. He kept on sending me messages and after a while, I was like, fuck it. Let me see what he has to say. At first it was hard, but now, it is a whole lot easier since I have turned into this new ME. He has a new lil b/f and he is SO HAPPY and does things with this boy that he NEVER done with me. It is actually his second b/f since we broke up with seems pretty crazy to me but whatever. I just think he can never be single. That's not the way he rolls. He even had to audacity to tell me that I NEED to look for someone and shouldn't be single as if a person NEEDS a relationship to survive. BULLSHIT. I mean, it's NICE to have but NOT a neccessity. He has even showed me pics of these new little boyfriends and not to sound vain, but I think I look better. He definitely went down the totem pole with these. The first one was just plain UGLY and although the second one looks better, he is PRETTY OVERWEIGHT. Whatever.
Speaking about weight--I am sure some of you may remember me talking about the ethics of getting liposuction since I SO want to have a flat stomach and have worked so hard for nothing but LOW AND BEHOLD I started a rigorous workout regimen and diet regiment on AUGUST 1st and am proud to say that I have lost 10 lbs. since! I am so happy and have seen DRASTIC changes in my body. I CAN'T WAIT to have the abs I have always wanted and KNOW I will get them this time b/c I am making NO EXCUSES and sticking to things. Trust me . . I WILL post pics of when I reach that stage. I have taken pre pics and will take post pics to show the transformation. All my friends think I am getting TOO skinny but I just have a small body build and I have to lose the weight for the abs to show!
So I think that is about everything that has transpired--or the important things anyways. Until next time . . .
SCHOOL
Well, been in school almost 2 months now and just had my first set of exams this past Monday and Tuesday. This year started out pretty differently for me b/c for some reason, I DID NOT have a problem with studying. It's like I know how much I need to study now and I actually enjoyed studying this year. The ONLY time I had trouble concentrating were the days before the exams b/c I just wanted it to be over and I was fed up. I have had to brush my friends off SO MUCH and was not able to do MANY things with them b/c of how much I was studying. The worst thing happened though b/c when I got one of my grades back, I was SO DISAPPOINTED in my grade. It's just that I thought back to just how much I was studying and how much I sacrified and my grade DID NOT reflect all the sacrifices I made. It was VERY DISCOURAGING but now I know that I just have to study harder and can only try to do better on the next exam. What's done is did.
FRIENDS
I have only gotten closer to my medical school friends and every moment we have, we spend time together. I know FOR SURE I will stay friends with these people forever. We are SO DIFFERENT but have the same drive of being doctors. I love it. We of course CUT UP the night after our exams. We ate at Chili's and went to this club that had like 5 people inside there but we danced our ASSES off for like 3 hours. All I needed was a drink and it was OVER. I was full of energy. Only thing is I woke up with a hang over the next morning. The first time I remember having one too, lol.
FAMILY
I haven't seen much of my family lately since I have not been home in a good minute. And what made me REALLY realize how long it's been was my Godchild calling me and telling me he missed me!! I almost cried b/c he NEVER told me anything like that. I will be home next weekend though b/c I have a 5 year high school reunion to attend. Gotta show these people how I'm still fine, lol. My mother is actually her at my apt. as we speak and we had a pretty good day. I brought her to the French Quarter and a few malls and Jackson Square and Cafe Du Monde to get beignets. It was really nice.
ENTERTAINMENT
So there are LOTS of CD's that have come out lately that I have just HAD to get and a few reality shows I have just gotten attached to. Here are my reviews:
Christina Aguilera's Back to Basics: It is amazing that someone in the 21st century went back to the 20's as her inspiration and the album turned out SO GREAT. My absolute favorite song is HURT which just emphasizes how great of a singer she is. I admire her for being different and am so very happy for her.
Danity Kane's Danity Kane: I watched Making Da Band and heard a few songs I thought I would like and have fallen in love with Dawn, who happens to be from New Orleans, so went to get their album and I must say IT IS SUPERB!! There are SO MANY songs I love with my absolute fav. being SLEEP ON IT which is the hidden track. These girls have potential and I wish them the best.
Beyonce's B'Day: So I am sure that just about EVERYONE has this album and I am mad at the number of tracks on it first of all. If you recorded 22 songs in 2 weeks, why not put at least 15 songs on dat bitch? I must say though I am in love with IRREPLACEABLE. Absolutely marvelous. I personally believe Beyonce is so much better at singing ballads so do believe Dangerously In Love was a little better but it's cute for her to expand her horizons.
Flavor of Love 2: I JUST STARTED catching this when New York came back and I have gotten attached again! I can't wait to see where things will lead and have a pretty good feeling that New York will when this season. If she doesn't, someone might as well get ready to admit her to a crazy house.
Big Brother: All Stars: It seems like everyone I was rooting for was getting voted off. First was Marcellas, then Danielle, then Chicken George. I finally ended up with Janelle, who I absolutely HATED in the beginning but it got to a point where her strength in the game was very obvious and I was like she deserves to win. Nevertheless, it ended up being boring and I am too upset that a person who owns 6 restaurants wins $500,000. Dats bull shit.
RELATIONSHIPS
So this is the aspect that has changed THE MOST. Ded and I are not talking like we were in the past. I got SO TIRED of running and running after him so I simply called things off. I felt like I was getting hurt more than anything by not having anything with him and wanting something so badly so I called him one day and told him he could stop calling me. We didn't talk for like a week and he called a week later telling me all the things he was going through and how he was not happy and I realized something--He SO did me a favor by not falling for me and wanting to be with me b/c he had TOO many issues and a relationship would just make things worse. He needed to just focus on his issues and not worry about relationships and what not. So from then on, we stopped talking and seeing each other as much and the only time we talk now is when he calls me. And whats SO WEIRD is that he seems to be coming around now but my perspective of things have changed SO MUCH that I don't even want him like that anymore. I speak to him to be cordial and talk about what's going on with us but I don't even like him "like dat" anymore. He sends me texts saying how he is thinking about me and even told me once how he wished I was his first b/f--that way, he wouldn't be so bitter and he knows things would be great between us. WTF! You mean to tell me that when I stop showing interest in you, you start showing interest in me? I'm so WHATEVER about him now though.
Now as far as Mister Trey. I thought he was such a good person for he was the only nigga dat ALWAYS followed through on when he said he would do something and never led me astray. Well, things have TOTALLY changed. This negro decides to call me TWO WEEKS after an incidence where he didn't show up when he said he would to explain things to me. If he only knew, once he didn't show up and let me know what was up, it was OVER for him. I just could not believe the nerves of him!
So, these two negroes have led me to a new stage in my life--THE NEW HAPPY AND SINGLE LIFE. At this point in my life, I am SO VERY happy AND single. I can't say there was ever a time before when I had BOTH of those things occur at the same time. I usually want love SO BADLY and always run after it to be left upset. But now . . I have realized that all relationships bring is DRAMA and that's something I DO NOT need right now. Besides, I have MORE THAN ENOUGH with school to keep me busy and I think that's why I love studying so much more now b/c it keeps me from even thinking about those lonely moments I get and what not. I am just so proud to say I am happy with being single. I think that I have had so much healing to go through since Quan and have morphed into a new Jeremy.
Speaking of Quan, so I started chatting with him again on Yahoo Messenger. He kept on sending me messages and after a while, I was like, fuck it. Let me see what he has to say. At first it was hard, but now, it is a whole lot easier since I have turned into this new ME. He has a new lil b/f and he is SO HAPPY and does things with this boy that he NEVER done with me. It is actually his second b/f since we broke up with seems pretty crazy to me but whatever. I just think he can never be single. That's not the way he rolls. He even had to audacity to tell me that I NEED to look for someone and shouldn't be single as if a person NEEDS a relationship to survive. BULLSHIT. I mean, it's NICE to have but NOT a neccessity. He has even showed me pics of these new little boyfriends and not to sound vain, but I think I look better. He definitely went down the totem pole with these. The first one was just plain UGLY and although the second one looks better, he is PRETTY OVERWEIGHT. Whatever.
Speaking about weight--I am sure some of you may remember me talking about the ethics of getting liposuction since I SO want to have a flat stomach and have worked so hard for nothing but LOW AND BEHOLD I started a rigorous workout regimen and diet regiment on AUGUST 1st and am proud to say that I have lost 10 lbs. since! I am so happy and have seen DRASTIC changes in my body. I CAN'T WAIT to have the abs I have always wanted and KNOW I will get them this time b/c I am making NO EXCUSES and sticking to things. Trust me . . I WILL post pics of when I reach that stage. I have taken pre pics and will take post pics to show the transformation. All my friends think I am getting TOO skinny but I just have a small body build and I have to lose the weight for the abs to show!
So I think that is about everything that has transpired--or the important things anyways. Until next time . . .