Grant me the serenity to be calm amidst all this chaos so that I don't harm anyone...
I'm in some kind of shock. For me this came out of nowhere--well, it can't literally be nowhere because everything comes from somewhere... dammit now I'm sounding philosophical and crazy like my partner.
I understand they have issues... that there are problems but every new partnership has barriers. You can't expect to be friends overnight, Goren and I certainly didn't but we dealt with them eventually. Hell, we still have them. But as a cop, as the kid of a cop, I know the most important thing is trust and to trust that your partner has your back. It seems Megan doesn't trust Mike to do that... and that shook me, I can't even imagine what that's done to Mike.
It can't just be about the bickering and banter crap because he's like that with everyone! He was bantering with me about my relationship with David, that's just his way. So to say I'm confused is an understatement.
And I have an issue with where it happened. On the steps outside the court house, in the possible view of any peeping Tom, Dick and Harry. It's almost like everything that was said in the court room had been forgotten the moment they'd stepped outside. Have they forgotten why the hell we're here?! This demands our respect and it's not getting any. I'm just thankful they've both already testified because if this had happened before it would have completely screwed it all up and I refuse to let that happen.
My arm is killing me, I miss David (and my nephew and parrot), I've yet to testify and it's looking very much like I really am the only sane member of MCS who is up here. If I did such a thing, I'd be crying--at most I know I had disturbing dreams last night (here's hoping I didn't mumble in my sleep the way Joe used to say I did because that would be embarrassing and annoying). This wasn't supposed to be dramatic, this was supposed to be routine and we were supposed to be on our best behaviour.
I hope I'm testifying today because staying for the weekend would just about sink me. It seems everyone has plans, if I have to stay I'm gonna sleep for the weekend. I'd go see the sights but to be honest, sleep sounds much more interesting at this point--at least if I sleep on my own I won't be bored.
I blame you for the "dirty" talk I'm having to listen to right now. Eames.