Homesick.....
*sigh*
Well here I sit again at the computer lab bored as all holy hell...
I just try to take it day by day....
Each day just adds on to the next though..
work has been really stressfull lately...get this shit..here it is in a nutshell..
everybody who was middle management and helping to get the place up..are now on vacation...and they all left right in the middle of my promotion...which leaves me to pick up thier slack and not only that but my two chefs look to me as if I should be able to handle it..everyday I run into a new problem with the same result...they think I should be able to deal with it when its something new to me and I basically just snap...
but I found out an intresting point.....when I snap they kinda leave me alone..
see right now there both fighting with eachother over some stupid decisions...and one will come to me and say that he is right....and 5 min later the other does the same thing....meanwhile I got a restaurant going to shit cause I have to ppl above me telling my people to do 2 different things...and after they fight and fuck things up they then come to me and ask why im not handling it...so yesterday I sat them both down and went nuts....it was actually pretty funny...
it was something among the lines of "I am fucking 20 years old and more fucking mature then you two...give me a fucking break....at this moment you have a kitchen full of cooks at yours and eachothers throats cause your too fucking childish to pack your shit with eachother away and work.. now if your looking for me to step up and take control then fine but dont fucking use your personal problems to fuck up that kitchen and blame me for it...cause anymore and im fucking gone..now I suggest you pull your shit together and get things out now cause im not about to deal with it anymore.." then I walked out and went back to work....I've never went nuts like that before...not with people I work with anyway....especially my chef...
but I mean am I wrong...I know some people may not know the kitchen basics...but in lack of a better word...chef is not your boss...he is your god...word is law and all that shit...and dont question it...
I wasent worried about getting fired cause I know im an indispensable commodity to them now...so they wont fire me...
but i thought for sure id get a writeup...in fact I was damn near expecting it...
well I come in today and was shocked to find nothing happened...they were still fighting and bitching but surprisingly enough they left me alone and barely said a word...and when I asked one of my guys to do something they didnt pull them away from it...so everything went nicely today...
so it must of worked...
anyway guess that was a little more then a nutshell..
hhehehehe sorry its a touchy subject for me...
so thats really all that went on in the past few days...i keep my days occupied to the max...just to pass the time...i work 12 to 13 then volunteer and help crew welfare by the time thats done its bed time...
cept on mondays and tuesdays...on those days its slow so i worked out a deal to get out after 10 hours and right after work i grab my board and head for the beach....so usually round 2:30 im at the beach and nothing else bothers me till like 7...
I absolutly love the water...each day that passes on it causes me to fall more deeply into it....I want so bad to get a place in maui open up a little beach side fish shack or something...and just live out my days in the pacific
but on the other end of my mind i love home and never wanna leave it...
ah well...the best part of my life i guess is that I dont know where it is going...
I can always love the pacific though :)
clear skies blue water......i mean...damn...have you ever watch the sunrise over a stretch of miles of ocean and wonder how there can be any bad in the world with something as beautifull as a sunrise...ive seen about a hundred now and i never get tired...each one is different and a picture can never capture the feeling it gives...
so in other words if you ever get the chance to cruise anywhere on the pacific....take it....or anyother ocean for that matter...
and the best cruising advice I can give...
dont hate your vacation cause someone on your trip didnt treat you like royalty...ive seen more ppl waste thier vacation by being snotty and pissed cause the littlest thing happen...meanwhile theres all this life going on around them and thier missing it..
so dont take that road...enjoy the time you get in life...and enjoy more the little moments you have here....cause as often as they may happen you never know when theyll stop...
wow....i am going insane...
soooo what else is new...well i still miss all you guys...
and this time noone can blame me for not calling .... :-p i keep calling everyone and noone answers thier phone...cept rach...but i dont think even her will answer for much longer lol cause everytime i call the cell reception fucks up her WoW game....LOL sorry rach...
but yea now yall know why i didnt always answer last contract...cause now the same thing is happening to you...WORK....hehehehe it sucks...
oo well ill keep trying to call cause i despretly need contact from home...and since i cant get it ill just do shoutouts here....I hope these words reach you all safely...goodnight all..
Jess - I miss you terribly and I really really really really really really really really really really really really really want to hear from you (see i even typed all of those "really"s out by hand...thats how much i want to talk to you) i hope you are ok and well and i hope the job is ok...give little A a hug for me and I miss her too....i love you kid and hopefully ill ttys *hugs*
Kell- it was great hearing from you last week :) and thx for calling im glad your ok and hope things get less boring for you :) i cant wait to see ya when i get home but till then hope things stay good for ya
love ya and miss ya :)
Rach - thx for listenin to me bitch and for learning me on politics and shit...altho you know ill never get it :-P...and sorry bout fucking up your game so many times heehehehehe have fun kid and party hard..love ya
Ang - i hope your doing ok....and i hope things have gotten better since last we talked...i miss ya and hope to hear from you....ttys i hope...
jax- HI :) sorry you lost my number and i wrote down yours...so ill call soon and give you mine :) ...and i hope things stay good for you...and if i miss your visit in nov then I deff. would not mind driving up to tenn. to visit ya :) as long as you got a place i could crash :) or rather a place to park my car and ill crash in it :)...besides I heard theres good kiting in N.C. and that only like a 15 hour detour from tenn. hehehehehe so im all for a roadtrip....till then ill ttys... byeee...
Dana - i got your lj message and ill keep trying to call ya :) im sorry life is hectic for ya right now....take care of yourself and ill ttys soon miss ya and i wanna chill when i get home :-P well have a party in the basement...the shaved cats can come too...
(you know if someone who didnt know what all that meant read this they might get the wrong idea...lol) ttyl and take care hehehehe
everyone else + friends from the past...
i definatly dont mind hearing from an old friend so give me a call...i will now continue to do something unorthodox in my book
650-7041 theres my number...i still kept some privacy by not leaving area code...but its a brooksville area code and so i think all you guys should be able to figure it out easy ....hehehe so give me a call sometime i like to hear from anyone ....as long as its outside contact lol
and chances are you may get my machine at first but leave a number and i WILL call back this i promise....remember theres a time difference im 6 hours behind est. standard.. so dont get mad if i dont pick up when its like 1 in the morn here lol....
well thats it i guess ive said all i could and now i must sleep for sake of tiredness tommorow at 2 in the morn...goodnight all and love ya and miss ya
love
-Me
Well here I sit again at the computer lab bored as all holy hell...
I just try to take it day by day....
Each day just adds on to the next though..
work has been really stressfull lately...get this shit..here it is in a nutshell..
everybody who was middle management and helping to get the place up..are now on vacation...and they all left right in the middle of my promotion...which leaves me to pick up thier slack and not only that but my two chefs look to me as if I should be able to handle it..everyday I run into a new problem with the same result...they think I should be able to deal with it when its something new to me and I basically just snap...
but I found out an intresting point.....when I snap they kinda leave me alone..
see right now there both fighting with eachother over some stupid decisions...and one will come to me and say that he is right....and 5 min later the other does the same thing....meanwhile I got a restaurant going to shit cause I have to ppl above me telling my people to do 2 different things...and after they fight and fuck things up they then come to me and ask why im not handling it...so yesterday I sat them both down and went nuts....it was actually pretty funny...
it was something among the lines of "I am fucking 20 years old and more fucking mature then you two...give me a fucking break....at this moment you have a kitchen full of cooks at yours and eachothers throats cause your too fucking childish to pack your shit with eachother away and work.. now if your looking for me to step up and take control then fine but dont fucking use your personal problems to fuck up that kitchen and blame me for it...cause anymore and im fucking gone..now I suggest you pull your shit together and get things out now cause im not about to deal with it anymore.." then I walked out and went back to work....I've never went nuts like that before...not with people I work with anyway....especially my chef...
but I mean am I wrong...I know some people may not know the kitchen basics...but in lack of a better word...chef is not your boss...he is your god...word is law and all that shit...and dont question it...
I wasent worried about getting fired cause I know im an indispensable commodity to them now...so they wont fire me...
but i thought for sure id get a writeup...in fact I was damn near expecting it...
well I come in today and was shocked to find nothing happened...they were still fighting and bitching but surprisingly enough they left me alone and barely said a word...and when I asked one of my guys to do something they didnt pull them away from it...so everything went nicely today...
so it must of worked...
anyway guess that was a little more then a nutshell..
hhehehehe sorry its a touchy subject for me...
so thats really all that went on in the past few days...i keep my days occupied to the max...just to pass the time...i work 12 to 13 then volunteer and help crew welfare by the time thats done its bed time...
cept on mondays and tuesdays...on those days its slow so i worked out a deal to get out after 10 hours and right after work i grab my board and head for the beach....so usually round 2:30 im at the beach and nothing else bothers me till like 7...
I absolutly love the water...each day that passes on it causes me to fall more deeply into it....I want so bad to get a place in maui open up a little beach side fish shack or something...and just live out my days in the pacific
but on the other end of my mind i love home and never wanna leave it...
ah well...the best part of my life i guess is that I dont know where it is going...
I can always love the pacific though :)
clear skies blue water......i mean...damn...have you ever watch the sunrise over a stretch of miles of ocean and wonder how there can be any bad in the world with something as beautifull as a sunrise...ive seen about a hundred now and i never get tired...each one is different and a picture can never capture the feeling it gives...
so in other words if you ever get the chance to cruise anywhere on the pacific....take it....or anyother ocean for that matter...
and the best cruising advice I can give...
dont hate your vacation cause someone on your trip didnt treat you like royalty...ive seen more ppl waste thier vacation by being snotty and pissed cause the littlest thing happen...meanwhile theres all this life going on around them and thier missing it..
so dont take that road...enjoy the time you get in life...and enjoy more the little moments you have here....cause as often as they may happen you never know when theyll stop...
wow....i am going insane...
soooo what else is new...well i still miss all you guys...
and this time noone can blame me for not calling .... :-p i keep calling everyone and noone answers thier phone...cept rach...but i dont think even her will answer for much longer lol cause everytime i call the cell reception fucks up her WoW game....LOL sorry rach...
but yea now yall know why i didnt always answer last contract...cause now the same thing is happening to you...WORK....hehehehe it sucks...
oo well ill keep trying to call cause i despretly need contact from home...and since i cant get it ill just do shoutouts here....I hope these words reach you all safely...goodnight all..
Jess - I miss you terribly and I really really really really really really really really really really really really really want to hear from you (see i even typed all of those "really"s out by hand...thats how much i want to talk to you) i hope you are ok and well and i hope the job is ok...give little A a hug for me and I miss her too....i love you kid and hopefully ill ttys *hugs*
Kell- it was great hearing from you last week :) and thx for calling im glad your ok and hope things get less boring for you :) i cant wait to see ya when i get home but till then hope things stay good for ya
love ya and miss ya :)
Rach - thx for listenin to me bitch and for learning me on politics and shit...altho you know ill never get it :-P...and sorry bout fucking up your game so many times heehehehehe have fun kid and party hard..love ya
Ang - i hope your doing ok....and i hope things have gotten better since last we talked...i miss ya and hope to hear from you....ttys i hope...
jax- HI :) sorry you lost my number and i wrote down yours...so ill call soon and give you mine :) ...and i hope things stay good for you...and if i miss your visit in nov then I deff. would not mind driving up to tenn. to visit ya :) as long as you got a place i could crash :) or rather a place to park my car and ill crash in it :)...besides I heard theres good kiting in N.C. and that only like a 15 hour detour from tenn. hehehehehe so im all for a roadtrip....till then ill ttys... byeee...
Dana - i got your lj message and ill keep trying to call ya :) im sorry life is hectic for ya right now....take care of yourself and ill ttys soon miss ya and i wanna chill when i get home :-P well have a party in the basement...the shaved cats can come too...
(you know if someone who didnt know what all that meant read this they might get the wrong idea...lol) ttyl and take care hehehehe
everyone else + friends from the past...
i definatly dont mind hearing from an old friend so give me a call...i will now continue to do something unorthodox in my book
650-7041 theres my number...i still kept some privacy by not leaving area code...but its a brooksville area code and so i think all you guys should be able to figure it out easy ....hehehe so give me a call sometime i like to hear from anyone ....as long as its outside contact lol
and chances are you may get my machine at first but leave a number and i WILL call back this i promise....remember theres a time difference im 6 hours behind est. standard.. so dont get mad if i dont pick up when its like 1 in the morn here lol....
well thats it i guess ive said all i could and now i must sleep for sake of tiredness tommorow at 2 in the morn...goodnight all and love ya and miss ya
love
-Me