work ethic and its implications on the human spirit...
You see the scary part isint wether or not I can make it all the way till november, the most frieghtening thing of all is I know I have to..
I can't quit...It isint something that I can do right now....and I never will...I dont know why but no matter what I feel like I always have something to prove to someone...I know that in the end I'll be fine but right now my body is taking a beating. The bags under my eyes are big enough to hold all the sand in egypt, my hands (which I have pictures of) have been torn beyond recognition....ive gotten this skin problem on them and i just get cuts outta nowhere and the skin peels....its not pretty. I honest to god do NOT know what day it is anymore or what date for that matter, and with all these time changes im losing track of that too..
But I keep going. cause I know that tommorow I will get up and go do the same thing.
I cant quit november is coming and I intend to be onboard when it does come.... and if I cant then I can just as easily take october without feeling failure...Ive been across the atlantic...6 different countries....and have spent 14 days at sea straight
I think I can handle 4 months in hawaii...
Tommorow is a new day and I know ill get up becuase I get up everyday....november will be here before I know it and then guess what....come january Ill be back
about a year ago I promised myself I would successfully complete 2 contracts....On august 20th I will have fullfilled that promise... and 3 motnhs after that I will have gone above and beyond....so do I miss the fact I cant enjoy a game like I used to....or that my hands hurt when they touch water....or any other substance for that matter.....
no I dont as much anymore cause life will go on and so will I...
I cant quit...and I cant stop...I dont know why im so afraid too.....no...im not afraid too.....I dont WANT to...cause if I stop, then I did nothing, but if I keep going, then eventually I will have done something...im sure of it... so heres to another day...ive gotta get up in 5 hours...goodnight...
-Me
I can't quit...It isint something that I can do right now....and I never will...I dont know why but no matter what I feel like I always have something to prove to someone...I know that in the end I'll be fine but right now my body is taking a beating. The bags under my eyes are big enough to hold all the sand in egypt, my hands (which I have pictures of) have been torn beyond recognition....ive gotten this skin problem on them and i just get cuts outta nowhere and the skin peels....its not pretty. I honest to god do NOT know what day it is anymore or what date for that matter, and with all these time changes im losing track of that too..
But I keep going. cause I know that tommorow I will get up and go do the same thing.
I cant quit november is coming and I intend to be onboard when it does come.... and if I cant then I can just as easily take october without feeling failure...Ive been across the atlantic...6 different countries....and have spent 14 days at sea straight
I think I can handle 4 months in hawaii...
Tommorow is a new day and I know ill get up becuase I get up everyday....november will be here before I know it and then guess what....come january Ill be back
about a year ago I promised myself I would successfully complete 2 contracts....On august 20th I will have fullfilled that promise... and 3 motnhs after that I will have gone above and beyond....so do I miss the fact I cant enjoy a game like I used to....or that my hands hurt when they touch water....or any other substance for that matter.....
no I dont as much anymore cause life will go on and so will I...
I cant quit...and I cant stop...I dont know why im so afraid too.....no...im not afraid too.....I dont WANT to...cause if I stop, then I did nothing, but if I keep going, then eventually I will have done something...im sure of it... so heres to another day...ive gotta get up in 5 hours...goodnight...
-Me