Life
Ok, if you're TOO MANLY for this blog, you've been warned. Ok it's long, but it might have some good ideas in it. If you're in college, maybe you have noticed some of this stuff by now too.
Growing up is weird. All of a sudden I have all these thoughts about the future and it is scary. But this month I got a big shocker, a couple I know got divorced that I never ever thought would, so now I'm wondering, does love actually exist or is it something that people invented, an ideal but unattainable situation? It's certaintly alive in movies, but is it alive anywhere else? I dunno. Somebody explain to me what it is. I read that love, like life, is more about the decisions you make than a feeling. I'm not sure I agree with that one, but I would think that it's more of a commitment because feelings are definitely misleading. They're basically chemical reactions that are not good in every situation. We're pretty much just animals, we think we're not because we have feelings, but feelings are just chemical reactions too. They're like hormones. Animals have hormones. Second, I thought, I've had some dating episodes where I can't seem to focus on one person, which is nature being evil! But now that I figured that out, all is better. But question number two: If love is real, is it just about dead by now? It has to be 100 times harder to find ever since the media went on this spree where they only allow women on television to wear nothing. It's distracting, it puts all emphasis on what is in front of people and nothing on the important part. Second, the internet floods everybody with so much info that you can't comprehend it all at once. People like me, yeah i fell into the trap too, download 1,000 songs in a day or something. That takes a lot of appreciation away from the music. It's the same way with info. Then that kind of mindset gets applied to relationships. People want, want, want, but don't give. Then when they get it, they don't appreciate it as much, because your mind develops that way. SO with all this stuff going against us, is love possible anymore? I read a book from the early 90's that said only 10% of married couples ever reach true intimacy (yeah, we're talking mental intimacy.) HOLY FRACK!!! 10%?! THAT SCARES ME!!! AHHHH!!! Then think about that was before the internet got big and you could go online and see Pamela Anderson taking her clothes off at any second. I don't, but I know lots of people who do. It changes people's minds. It's bad. Earth is bad. aHhH!!! I don't care, I live in it, so I have to figure out how to stay away from all the negative influences. I keep watching movies where Tom Hanks meets some woman and they have this picture perfect family. I feel like I'm old thinking about this, or too young to think about it, but whatever, I have to start thinking like that now if I want to end up having a good family. I want that family I see that Tom Hanks has in movies that seems unreal. I'm going to get it!! It is my mission!! I'm pretty sure I'm capable of it, as long as I know not to get distracted by the communism of nature. So, no wasting time. I don't like dating for fun. Why would I want to date for fun? Is getting dumped fun? No. That's not fun. It is also not fun thinking about how much fun I used to have dating different people, and how that is gone. But I haven't been doing that lately because things are good. I'm just looking ahead. Must make goals! I am a goal-oriented person. George and I decided that there are only 2 good women in the entire world, so we'd better find them. Otherwise, frack! That's just a joke, but I really wonder how many there are. And then I wonder if I'm good? Maybe I'm evil and just don't know it... nah, surely not. I think I'm on the right track.
Growing up is weird. All of a sudden I have all these thoughts about the future and it is scary. But this month I got a big shocker, a couple I know got divorced that I never ever thought would, so now I'm wondering, does love actually exist or is it something that people invented, an ideal but unattainable situation? It's certaintly alive in movies, but is it alive anywhere else? I dunno. Somebody explain to me what it is. I read that love, like life, is more about the decisions you make than a feeling. I'm not sure I agree with that one, but I would think that it's more of a commitment because feelings are definitely misleading. They're basically chemical reactions that are not good in every situation. We're pretty much just animals, we think we're not because we have feelings, but feelings are just chemical reactions too. They're like hormones. Animals have hormones. Second, I thought, I've had some dating episodes where I can't seem to focus on one person, which is nature being evil! But now that I figured that out, all is better. But question number two: If love is real, is it just about dead by now? It has to be 100 times harder to find ever since the media went on this spree where they only allow women on television to wear nothing. It's distracting, it puts all emphasis on what is in front of people and nothing on the important part. Second, the internet floods everybody with so much info that you can't comprehend it all at once. People like me, yeah i fell into the trap too, download 1,000 songs in a day or something. That takes a lot of appreciation away from the music. It's the same way with info. Then that kind of mindset gets applied to relationships. People want, want, want, but don't give. Then when they get it, they don't appreciate it as much, because your mind develops that way. SO with all this stuff going against us, is love possible anymore? I read a book from the early 90's that said only 10% of married couples ever reach true intimacy (yeah, we're talking mental intimacy.) HOLY FRACK!!! 10%?! THAT SCARES ME!!! AHHHH!!! Then think about that was before the internet got big and you could go online and see Pamela Anderson taking her clothes off at any second. I don't, but I know lots of people who do. It changes people's minds. It's bad. Earth is bad. aHhH!!! I don't care, I live in it, so I have to figure out how to stay away from all the negative influences. I keep watching movies where Tom Hanks meets some woman and they have this picture perfect family. I feel like I'm old thinking about this, or too young to think about it, but whatever, I have to start thinking like that now if I want to end up having a good family. I want that family I see that Tom Hanks has in movies that seems unreal. I'm going to get it!! It is my mission!! I'm pretty sure I'm capable of it, as long as I know not to get distracted by the communism of nature. So, no wasting time. I don't like dating for fun. Why would I want to date for fun? Is getting dumped fun? No. That's not fun. It is also not fun thinking about how much fun I used to have dating different people, and how that is gone. But I haven't been doing that lately because things are good. I'm just looking ahead. Must make goals! I am a goal-oriented person. George and I decided that there are only 2 good women in the entire world, so we'd better find them. Otherwise, frack! That's just a joke, but I really wonder how many there are. And then I wonder if I'm good? Maybe I'm evil and just don't know it... nah, surely not. I think I'm on the right track.