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He's transferring. For me. For us. To give us a chance. Maybe now Danny can shut the hell up about what he doesn't know. I'm still pissed that he's "grounding" me, but you know...I'll accept it. It's like I told Brian...I'm gonna stick it out there and take all this shit. I'm going to show them that I'm not the person they seem to think I am. Bri told me that I'm one of the most dedicated cops he knows...it's nice to see someone gets that I'm in this job for the job. I also said that I will stay away for Alex's testimony, after all, I know she's going to kick ass. But I am going to fight tooth and nail to go up for the verdict. If we're not in the middle of something, of course. If the others go I am damn well going, too. This was my case, too, and I want to hear them call out the final word. For all I care they can babysit me the whole time, cuff me to Alex's wrist, and treat me like a prisoner.
I talked to Mom for a long time last night. I told her so many things I'd never said to her about how I've been feeling the past few months, things I tried explaining to Danny that he just...dismissed. She said a few things I didn't care to hear, but she listened. End result is, she wants me to be strong and keep going to work every day like this doesn't affect me. And she wants to meet the guy that is causing all of this drama in my life. I personally don't want to put him through that, but it's all up to him.
So I'm at work and I'm keeping to myself, doing my job. It's what I'm here for. And at the end of the day, I'm going to go get Sloopy from Brian's friend Rossi and take him home with me. And...I'm just going to lay low.