I'm alive, I promise

[det_liviabenson]

I've finally come out of hiding and I'm seriously considering just jumping right back into it. The kittens.... cats. The cats have been snuggle buddies and a great comfort but I don't think there's anything that would make me feel better at this point. Even Josh coming home wouldn't help. Misery doesn't always like company.

I keep trying to tell myself that I should have expected it. Of course that doesn't work. I can almost make myself believe it's not true, but I stopped that after a couple hours because it just made reality worse when I made it back.