i'm trying to find a balance.
i want to quit quitting smoking..if that makes sense.
i've missed justine, so it was nice finally seeing her. mostly it was my fault
we hadn't been hanging out. it's because i'm always sleeping. it's like an
insatiable urge to sleep. i could sleep for nine hours and awake as if i
had only slept three. Most of the time i sleep over fourteen hours a day, if i'm lucky.
i've been sleeping more now that i've stopped smoking. I hope i can do it. my friend's
aren't much of a help. i think what justine said today hit the nail right on the head
about when you quit smoking and some of your friends don't encourage you to quit. it's like
they know you are doing something that they wish they had the will power to do and some how
in the back of their mind feel shitty that they didn't have the power to do it themselves.
who knows. I personally don't give a shit. i just know that i am grateful for the friends who
have helped me through this.
loneliness is the worst feeling to feel when you are with people. i'm tired of feeling this way.
and most of all i am tired of me.
quote of the day:
i want a latin lover. reaaaaaaaaal bad. i'm serious!
the highlight of my day:
trying to throw squid tentacles down justine's shirt, in her cup and inside of her car.
who would have known squid makes you squeamish.
least favorite part of today:
selfish people are beginning to make me want to be selfish.
no one is really listening, not even if they are looking you
in the eyes..
i've missed justine, so it was nice finally seeing her. mostly it was my fault
we hadn't been hanging out. it's because i'm always sleeping. it's like an
insatiable urge to sleep. i could sleep for nine hours and awake as if i
had only slept three. Most of the time i sleep over fourteen hours a day, if i'm lucky.
i've been sleeping more now that i've stopped smoking. I hope i can do it. my friend's
aren't much of a help. i think what justine said today hit the nail right on the head
about when you quit smoking and some of your friends don't encourage you to quit. it's like
they know you are doing something that they wish they had the will power to do and some how
in the back of their mind feel shitty that they didn't have the power to do it themselves.
who knows. I personally don't give a shit. i just know that i am grateful for the friends who
have helped me through this.
loneliness is the worst feeling to feel when you are with people. i'm tired of feeling this way.
and most of all i am tired of me.
quote of the day:
i want a latin lover. reaaaaaaaaal bad. i'm serious!
the highlight of my day:
trying to throw squid tentacles down justine's shirt, in her cup and inside of her car.
who would have known squid makes you squeamish.
least favorite part of today:
selfish people are beginning to make me want to be selfish.
no one is really listening, not even if they are looking you
in the eyes..