Hmm, I'll update my journal more often..
Me, a woman? What the fuck, lol.
I'm certainly gonna have to redo my layout for this journal, looks too... old, need some taste to it. I'll get to it when I'm not too lazy or something, haha.
Anyway, seriously...
As of late, I've been having odd dreams, I can't say what and etc here, I sorta consider it personal. It's kinda bothering me. Only thing I hope it won't do to me: turn me into insane person. I've been reading few of people's journal lately, nobody on my friendlist, mind you, and I was thinking about alot of things. Wish I could change things, so I'd be happy no matter what. I honestly don't understand where my laziness came from. My mom is hardworking person, so is my father. Mother's a doctor, while father owns his own business. Maybe I'm just abnormal of family, regardless. Maybe I'm going though normal stage of laziness as my parents but they went though, and I'm failure? I know I'm trying to work on fixing my life at the moment, I'm just having bit of trouble with everything, arg.
I hope I can somehow find Holli and ask her if she can help me get permit/license for driving so I can get car from my mom, so I have my own method of transportation... before RIT anyway.
Should I keep being persist at getting ahold of Tracie? I want to spend bit of my time with her, to "remotivate" me to work at it. (getting into RIT of course...) She's pretty too busy for me to even catch, again, she might have had her phone placed in a room with glass-walls all around, or something cuz nobody ever answers the phone when I call. Or she has caller ID to ignore unknown numbers... I wish I knew why, so I could try other way to get ahold of her, email is no good, computer is broken. (I'd fix her computer, but I don't want to fuck it up and I can't even get ahold of her to let her know I could try to fix.)
I really hate being deaf sometime, so restricted... fucking stupid.
I guess I'll get going, peace.