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I feel like I have been try'n to run away and I have ran so far and lately I have been looking back and everything that I ran from is not even a step away...I am tired and far from in the mood to run anymore....so where do I go from here....I cant give myself the answer and I am sure as hell no one else can or cares to... I own up to it I have done some shit that was so wrong I could only wish to pull it out of everyones memory..but that is something in life that just cant happen....I be'n only 21 wish I could go back now and do things over...I guess when u step out and look in as a person from the outside u see things in a different point of view....I have push'd everyone away to pull them back to drag them down with me to push them away again...I am just a worthless liar.
I am just an imbecile.
I will only complicate you.
Trust in me and fall as well.
I will find a center in you.
I will chew it up and leave,
I will work to elevate you
Just enough to bring you down.
Trust me.
That hits home......It is like fear keeps me from give'n my all and/or 100% let'n go...it is like if someone said to me that I could have anything 100% but I have to give up everything else but that one thing would be so perfect and I would be happy and taken care of no worries and no fear I would give everything up.....but in the real world that never happens that is not my life nor is that anyone lifes....I hate the world and all this bullshit and I hate the hand that I have been dealt I dont wanna play anymore....I wanna be ok....
I am just an imbecile.
I will only complicate you.
Trust in me and fall as well.
I will find a center in you.
I will chew it up and leave,
I will work to elevate you
Just enough to bring you down.
Trust me.
That hits home......It is like fear keeps me from give'n my all and/or 100% let'n go...it is like if someone said to me that I could have anything 100% but I have to give up everything else but that one thing would be so perfect and I would be happy and taken care of no worries and no fear I would give everything up.....but in the real world that never happens that is not my life nor is that anyone lifes....I hate the world and all this bullshit and I hate the hand that I have been dealt I dont wanna play anymore....I wanna be ok....