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May 12, 2014 16:01

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Minseok is no longer jail bait, with a moustache like that. My heart can't handle it. canadaphile May 13 2014, 01:17:20 UTC
When you're feeling bad, there is no need to apologise. It's how you feel; you can't really help it, especially when it's work-related. Lots of external goings on with that.

Adult life sucks balls. I give you many points for dealing as best you can and not blowing up at work, in German or English or otherwise.

Just hang in there the best you can. Relax whenever given a chance. Deep breaths.

=^..^=~

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It's the coolest mustache ever. He should make it permanent. destroyer9119 May 13 2014, 02:41:48 UTC
Aww thank you for commenting on my angstiness =). Apologizing for negative feelings is an incredibly difficult thing to do. Or at least it is for me.

Adult life is shit! No one prepares teenagers for the real world, and suddenly it's just BAM! 'We're gonna shove your head into a bucket a feces for the next fifty years, resistance is futile'. It's all ass nuggetry.

I managed to keep myself from blowing up at work today, but there's always tomorrow =).

Thank you and I'll try my best. I hope you're doing well! Deep breaths =).

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I bet someone would cut it off in his sleep if he tried to keep it. canadaphile May 13 2014, 03:06:42 UTC
Your feelings, even negative ones, are valid, so there's nothing to apologise for. This is also your space; use it however you please. (You could even make this into a fanatic deciduous North-western American tree journal. Whatever floats your boat, friend.)

That's what I cannot stand! You're maybe told in college "Oh, by the way? You need to know a lot of people and have worked since high school in order to get a job, and you're probably going to hate the job, because it's going to be whatever we old folks give you. Do the work; don't talk back. Still ask to use the bathroom." Like, you're still a child but with greater expectations of responsibility put on you. It's bullcrap.

Just keep breathing. Maybe do some stretches at your desk. It's just another day; it'll end. Things change.

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I can just see Kyungsoo/Luhan/A Manager sneaking into Minseok's room with a battery operated razor. destroyer9119 May 13 2014, 03:37:55 UTC
In theory I know that, but in practice there's a little voice in my head reminding me that bottling up negative emotions is how I was raised, and when I was a kid letting unhappiness out into the word was practically a sin. It's a hard habit to break ( ... )

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Straight razor and a leather belt. More dramatic to wake up to. canadaphile May 13 2014, 04:05:21 UTC
Small victories. Let out a little bit every once in a while. Odds are while you're venting, someone else is gushing sunshine and rainbows, so the vibes cancel out.

I just made it up as a "do whatever the fuck you feel like, broseph".

I totally agree. 110%. I might go back to school to avoid the workforce [that doesn't want me, anyway] and mooch off others for as long as I can, because it's all I know. All I was allowed to know, even. BC

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Maybe the entire xiuharem is there. surrounding the bed wearing black robes and death eater masks. destroyer9119 May 13 2014, 05:13:42 UTC
Trying. Getting there. Will one day succeed in not apologizing. It annoys the shit out of my girlfriend, so it'll have to happen eventually.

That's really unfortunate. 'North-Western American Tree Journal' sounded kind of awesome.

That sounds like a wonderful way to live life. Sometimes I dream of quitting my job and going to work at a corner store. Those cashiers always seem pretty happy with their lives. If only those places paid more than minimum wage...

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That's how they keep him looking young and cute. The moustache must be sacrificed for youth. canadaphile May 13 2014, 16:11:23 UTC
Someday may not be today, but it is some day. No one can ask more of you.

I looked it up. There's no specific journal by that name. Just regular tree journals.

That's the trick. Simple, kind of carefreeish (light?) jobs don't pay well. If you are by yourself and thrifty, you can be totally fine. If you're with someone, even a pet, the additional costs add up. UnU I want to open my own cat cafe and club. I'd be my own boss and work with strippers and baristas; it'd be great. There'd also be lots of cats. Perfect therapy. I don't know how to start, though. I have no money thanks to school.

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