Apr 06, 2006 20:49
i'm uploading a dozen albums to my computer. mostly it's just stuff i've been too lazy to rip, but it temporarily suppresses my constant craving for new music. the problem with music is that there's so much of it, and i want it all. i have around 2800 tracks on my computer, but that's kid stuff, a pathetic excuse for a music obsession. my taste doesn't feel satisfactorily comprehensive. my grasp of indie, rock, ska, emo, and hardcore is woefully inadequate. i love early punk but i haven't got enough of it. i want the entire back catalogs of all my favorite super-prolific bands (bad religion, anyone?). there are dozens of bands i feel like a complete idiot for not possessing albums from (lifetime, saves the day, black flag, the circle jerks, operation ivy, the descendents, iggy pop, etc.). loving music is not enough; i want to be an expert, and it's painful to me that i'm not.
i just started writing out a brief list of albums i want, but i had to stop because a) it was too agonizing to know that i can't have them and b) it very quickly became the antithesis of brief. sadly i can't get a job until august at least; i may die soon from cd-buying withdrawal, not having purchased one in over a month.