cuz i'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
wow i havent written in here in a while. i've been writing on myspace more lately...hmmm dont know why.
oh well.
anyway. not too much is new. still at sunglass hut...still with pat...BUT i did buy a new car last week. a much needed new car. its a 2006 cobalt. brand fucking new. i love it. no more taurus.
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so today was pat's birthday, and my sister's birthday. pat turned 22. lauren turned 20.
i guess i had too high of hopes for today, and as usual they turned out as shit. well not really, its just that it seems like i try to make a nice day/evening and it all goes to shit.
im getting to the point where i dont want to try anymore cuz most of the time it just isnt worth it.
dont get me wrong, its not like i am not happy cuz i am. its just that i try to do something nice and it doesnt get recognized, or my idea just gets shot down or whatever. and it turns out to almost be a waste of time.
i spent a total of maybe 2 hours with pat for his birthday. woo. (not really). and all we did was swim. not even. just like sat around in the pool with 2 of his friends. i kinda hoped to spend more time with him...but whatever. its cool i guess.
i just get so frustrated with him sometimes. but i just cant stay mad at him. well i can, but its not the same type of anger. i think sometimes he cant handle the fact though that i voice my opinions and i dont hold back when he does something to piss me off. i sure as hell will say something.
It feels like everyday stays the same
It's dragging me down and I can't pull away
So here I go again
Chasing you down again
Why do I do this?
Over and over, over and over
I fall for you
Over and over, over and over
I try not to
Over and over, over and over
You make me fall for you
Over and over, over and over
You don't even try
i have a lot more i want to say. i just dont feel like typing anymore cuz my arm is randomly starting to hurt. so until next time...