It was a darrrrk and storrrmy night... lol
So first and foremost I wanted to borrow these lines from my friends in Brand New because I really feel like they totally emulate how I feel and my thoughts are 100% concurrent with theirs...in these lines that is...
And I know that you're a sucker for anything acoustic
But when I say let's keep in touch, I really mean I wish that you'd grow up.
This is the first song for your mix tape
And it's short just like your temper
Somewhat golden like the afternoons we used to spend
Before you got too cool. -Mix Tape
And now to my own creation. This is a little rough, but it served the purpose of getting it all off my chest in one shot lol
It shall be called The Infamous Two Weeks. ( think.)
Two weeks ago I thought my world was ending
All these thoughts, feelings, emotions I was not intending.
I couldn't move, barely breathe or even speak.
I came to the only sensible conclusion; I am weak.
Along with such a conclusion came a plethora of questions,
And to all these things I answered "there are just no easy suggestions"
"What happened?","Why?", and "How can I change this?"
On top of all this I wondered if there were any things you would miss.
So one week went by and it didn't get any easier.
I felt I had to talk to you so you could explain what your reasons are.
Imagine my confusion when every conversation ended in tears.
I don't understand. The guy I was dating was not so severe.
At night I'd lay in bed and toss and turn,
Wondering why my feelings were apparently no longer your concern.
I really thought you were special, I thought you would treat me right,
But in the end you were just like all the rest...everything ended in a fight.
So in the middle of my heartbreak and pain
New news arises to drive me even more insane.
What are the reasons you so easily forgot me?
All of our time invested, all those memories?
A call from a close friend to try to help me recover
Tells me the news is that you already have a new lover.
So soon after breaking my heart!?
I searched my mind for answers because it was tearing me apart.
After the hysterical crying had ended
and I'd yelled and screamed and had new wounds to be mended
I needed to speak to you to know if this were true.
All in all hoping all this hurt you would undo.
Unfortunately these accusations weren't false
You like someone else and for a moment I was at a loss.
But how is this possible? It's so cruel and mean
I sat there awestruck just staring at the screen.
I have been miserable and driving myself insane.
Doing nothng with myself just being miserably mundane
And it wasn't even the fact that you like her,
Though finding that out hurt enough for sure.
But when I simply inquired and got upset
You got angry at me and I'll never forget.
The complete lack of compassion or care at all
It was certainly a change from your sweet words last fall.
It still perplexes my mind this place we are now,
I don't know what happened and I just don't know how.
I learned a lot of lessons in this relationship
If you're going to get in one don't lose your grip.
Relationships, they have to be fair
Both partners must be equal, both need to care.
I can't believe I let myself fall so deep in love with you
And all I EVER wanted was for you to love me too.
I'm still beside myself with anger and shock
But at least now those feelings of love I won't have to block.
Because now when I look at you those feelings have been replaced.
No more stupid memories, my heart doesn't race.
I can't say I hope that you're happy because that's a lie.
I just hope you realize what you have lost when I move on to another guy.
haha Thanks for sucking! <3 (no really thats how I am gonna end that poem lol)
So...thanks for uh reading that ridiculously long peice of emotional purging. hehehe