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I know how I always say this stuff but I don't know how to ask for help anymore. If I ask my mom she'll give me medicine that's not working. Maybe if I try to do something to myself everything will be better. I know it will be. I hate how I always tell Angelica but I need to tell someone. Hoping they can say something that will change my mind. Nothing ever works though. I've tried everything. The only way I feel better is if I hurt myself. Well I'm gonna try to think of reasons not to do it. I feel bad cause if something happens Angelica is going to feel responsible and it's all my fault. I always fuck up. I never know the right thing to say. Hope everything will turn out better for everyone else. This may be goodbye...If not tonight then sometime over this four-day weekend. I don't want anyone to care about me when it happens.....