$%^@&* To whom it may concern @!$%#^
Okay...might i say its a good thing that my computer decided not to work. otherwise, my entry wouldnt have been all too nice. now that ive had some time to calm down...all i have to say is WHAT THE FUCK!! How are you gonna tell me that im lyin? you have NO idea...might i stress NO idea what is goin on! dont tell me that im not allowed to use the phone! i dont think you have any right to tell me what i can and cannot do! do you not remember everything that happened the whole last week of school? Do you not remember any of the arguments and fights that i was havin with my dad? If you did, then maybe you'd understand a bit more and not be a lil bitch about it! do you not remember the promise ring that my dad gave me...then took away...then gave back to me!? well...ithought i told you once before, but maybe it bears repeating that we had but i say another disagreement in which he revoked all my personal usage of my cell phone AND the house phone the sunday before school was let out. THEN we started to KINDA get along again just the day beforei left for albuquerque and that saturday, once again we were not gettin along...why? because i had a panic attack and wouldnt tell him why! needless to say, sunday night he had my mom come to me and get the ring back once more and i have yet to talk to him! he didnt even say goodbye when he left the next mornin!he doesnt answer the phone when i call from my cell and if i do answer, all he says is "where's your mom". my mom may allow me 30 minutes every other night at most to talk to malik... but of course i cant call him, he has to call me. HOWEVER we HARDLY spend any time at home right now. mostly because we have NOTHING! my mom had to buy a 2 mattresses so her and my sister could have a place to sleep. my cousin gave us his futon so now we have two beds. we also have an air mattress...but it has a hole...so you basically sleepin on the floor. my grandparents lent us a recliner so we could have "furniture" in our living room, and they gave us a table to we could have a place to eat. we spend most of our time at their house, cause...once again...we have nothing! everything is still in Texas. when we are at home...what are we doin? tryin to get everything together...tryin to make everythign homey. right now...we've painted practically every room inthe house except for my bathroom. it took a whole day just to pain the master bath...and its not even that big! ive been out tryin to learn the streets cause my mom is gonna go down to texas soon to get some more furniture, and i have to know how to get around. ive started to look for a job, and have to actually get registered for high school soon.
I HAVE been very busy, and NO, i am NOT allowed to make any phone calls! so dont give me any of that "liar" "that's a bunch of bullshit" shit cause you dont know anything...alrighty! when i say ill keep in touch, yes i did mean that...but come on now! ive havent even been here for 3 weeks! let me get settled in first and everything...alright! let me handle what i have to first! we are in different states now... so dont think imma be able to find a way to talk to you every week now...your just gonna have to give me time! and if you knew that i wasnt able to talk much on the phone when i was in Texas...what makes you think id be able to talk just as much or more often if we are all the way in different states...okay!
and i do recall you sayin a little something something like...if i get a hold of you then great and youll respond...otherwise you wouldnt be surprised and wouldnt even try talkin to me...no email no nothin. so what's wiht that email outta no where! that was UNCALLED for! if your gonna decide to out of the blue send me an email and talk to me like that with no respect WHATSOEVER then dont even bother! keep that to YOURSELF and stop tryin to make everybody's life shit just because you arent satisfied with yours! im really tired of this already! the next time you feel like sayin something like that to me...dont even bother! just dont talk to me...that's what was goin on in the first place! dont even waste your time! i just dont understand why since we havetn talked in who knows how long...outta nowhere...you decide to send me some shit like that! no...
and what was with that little comment somethin about me bein just like dat bitch ass wendy's crew... how are you gonna say soemthing like that? arent they supposed to be your friends...or arent you supposed to be pretending that they are? is there ANYBODY that you DONT talk shit about? cause...um...i cant think of anybody you havent bitched about...nobody... oh yeah... what a great friend you are...
I HAVE been very busy, and NO, i am NOT allowed to make any phone calls! so dont give me any of that "liar" "that's a bunch of bullshit" shit cause you dont know anything...alrighty! when i say ill keep in touch, yes i did mean that...but come on now! ive havent even been here for 3 weeks! let me get settled in first and everything...alright! let me handle what i have to first! we are in different states now... so dont think imma be able to find a way to talk to you every week now...your just gonna have to give me time! and if you knew that i wasnt able to talk much on the phone when i was in Texas...what makes you think id be able to talk just as much or more often if we are all the way in different states...okay!
and i do recall you sayin a little something something like...if i get a hold of you then great and youll respond...otherwise you wouldnt be surprised and wouldnt even try talkin to me...no email no nothin. so what's wiht that email outta no where! that was UNCALLED for! if your gonna decide to out of the blue send me an email and talk to me like that with no respect WHATSOEVER then dont even bother! keep that to YOURSELF and stop tryin to make everybody's life shit just because you arent satisfied with yours! im really tired of this already! the next time you feel like sayin something like that to me...dont even bother! just dont talk to me...that's what was goin on in the first place! dont even waste your time! i just dont understand why since we havetn talked in who knows how long...outta nowhere...you decide to send me some shit like that! no...
and what was with that little comment somethin about me bein just like dat bitch ass wendy's crew... how are you gonna say soemthing like that? arent they supposed to be your friends...or arent you supposed to be pretending that they are? is there ANYBODY that you DONT talk shit about? cause...um...i cant think of anybody you havent bitched about...nobody... oh yeah... what a great friend you are...