Hard weekend.
Well, this weekend was terrible for me. I know a lot of years have gone by since my mother died, but the pain is forever there. I can never seem to let go and move away from it. My wife tried to help me by having the boys spend a couple of days with her mother. But, at times I wanted them with me and at others I wanted to be alone. On Monday (May 23rd) I was glad that the kids were not there because that day was the actual day she passed.
I had a little too much to drink and I would have hated my sons to see me like that. It would have killed me. They look up to me way too much for me to let that happen. I'm okay today, I guess. I still don't feel like myself, but I'm not shaky like before. I even had enough control to talk to my father about everything that happened to me while growing up and how much I hated him for not being there when I needed him. I think this will somehow help our relationship.
Well, my boys are back home with us and I am sitting on their floor typing because they told me that their grandfather (My wife's dad) told them a story about aliens and now they're too scared to sleep. They are sleeping, but only lightly, so I decided to spend the night in their room. At least my wife can sleep because she has a lot of things to do in the morning.
Well, I guess that catches you guys up for the time being. I'm gonna start just reading people's journals to see what it's like in someone else's shoes.
I had a little too much to drink and I would have hated my sons to see me like that. It would have killed me. They look up to me way too much for me to let that happen. I'm okay today, I guess. I still don't feel like myself, but I'm not shaky like before. I even had enough control to talk to my father about everything that happened to me while growing up and how much I hated him for not being there when I needed him. I think this will somehow help our relationship.
Well, my boys are back home with us and I am sitting on their floor typing because they told me that their grandfather (My wife's dad) told them a story about aliens and now they're too scared to sleep. They are sleeping, but only lightly, so I decided to spend the night in their room. At least my wife can sleep because she has a lot of things to do in the morning.
Well, I guess that catches you guys up for the time being. I'm gonna start just reading people's journals to see what it's like in someone else's shoes.