here we go again.
so i'm a screw-up.
i realize this now.
relationships are scary.
i got scared, so i booked it.
sorry.
i've come to this conclusion, i'm not going to have another boyfriend for a LOOOOOONG time.
atleast until i know what the hell is wrong with me.
well besides the obvious.
i've had a fear of commitment since, well i don't know when.
and then josh kinda happened and when that ended it got bigger.
the thing with commitment is, in my opinion..
easier for you to get hurt.
and i have this big ass fear of getting hurt.
i think when i saw my mom with her boyfriends&when she told me about all her boyfriends and how she got hurt and stuff, i didn't want that to be me.
my god, since when did i become such a big fuck up?
i realize this now.
relationships are scary.
i got scared, so i booked it.
sorry.
i've come to this conclusion, i'm not going to have another boyfriend for a LOOOOOONG time.
atleast until i know what the hell is wrong with me.
well besides the obvious.
i've had a fear of commitment since, well i don't know when.
and then josh kinda happened and when that ended it got bigger.
the thing with commitment is, in my opinion..
easier for you to get hurt.
and i have this big ass fear of getting hurt.
i think when i saw my mom with her boyfriends&when she told me about all her boyfriends and how she got hurt and stuff, i didn't want that to be me.
my god, since when did i become such a big fuck up?